Back to that point in my life where I have to deal with feelings and stress at the same time. It's such a joy to be screaming in my head and not be able to actually talk about it. Honestly, this blog is the best thing I do. I can get a lot of things out that I can't seem to just say. I feel like I need therapy, but I know it would be a waste of ( Read more... )

Compersion is defined as the feeling of joy in another person's joy, the opposite of jealousy. It could be as simple as seeing a child's reaction to getting a new toy, or a pet - or as deep as seeing your lover happy with another. In my experience it is often used in the sense of the latter, especially within the poly community ( Read more... )

Just when I thought I was over things, my own subconcious decided to kick me in the gut. I had a dream about my ex, not a fun one either unfortunately - though I question if that would have been better. Instead, I awoke after getting some of the dirtiest and most hostile looks from someone who I thought loved me once ( Read more... )

I am by no means considered a romantic person. In my life I've often managed to get lucky with partners that hold little value in material things like flowers and cards. My wife, for one, is allergic to flowers and thinks cards are a waste of money. She prefers the random act of affection in stead; a hug, a kiss, the more-than-occasional butt grab ( Read more... )

The drama of having an open relationship is not always your own. Often you have your share of the relationships of your spouse bleed into your life as well. I try to be as supportive as I can, as frustrating as that can be at times ( Read more... )

It's been a long road in a short time. While I have been slow to find a new partner in my life, my wife has, unsurprisingly, found her own. The ability of one to do so would appear to be an odd exercise in gender studies. It has also been a point of contention in our relationship ( Read more... )

I feel as though whenever I try to make something happen or work out - it won't. Not only will it not go as I hope, it will in fact explode in my face. My last relationship ended that way, my current attempts to even start a relationship have started to go that way. In the effort of not crashing into the iceberg so to speak, I have chosen to lay ( Read more... )

Every so often you reach an unfortunate event in your life. Hopefully they are few and far between, but sometimes they're a long string of hits that seemingly never cease to end. My last weekend was not one of those times, but it was a disappointment in many, if not all, ways ( Read more... )

Issues come up in a relationship, I believe more so when you have an open one. My marriage has never been an issue, truly, mostly issues of communication. There are some things you expect to know or be told when others you can file as casual and inconsequential. The changing of a relationship status between people, even those you're not intimately ( Read more... )

While the topic of an open relationship has been something we've discussed for years, it wasn't until shortly before I started writing here that it became a reality. It was entirely a sudden occurance as well, not a plan. Events simply transpired around us in a way that put us in the center of the local Poly community. And while being in the ( Read more... )