I Love the way You Hurt - Chapter 18
Title : I Love the way You Hurt
Author : me and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairings : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi, will have some Sakumiya later on
Rating : +17, NC (it won't be hardcore but I still wouldn't suggest kids to read it)
Genre : drama, romance
Summary : Ohno and Aiba are best friends for the longest time now. They've always been together and did everything together, always had the same passions and interests. When Aiba discovers the only thing that it seems like they don't have in common, he decides he needs to find some more of it. He doesn't expect to find the love of his life in doing so.
Disclaimer : None of us own Arashi. Though we'd both like to XD
A/N : Since in the story I wrote with sakura_hime1212, Love is Stronger Than Pain, we gave BDSM a pretty horrible and untrue notion, I decided to make this story which will show the real BDSM life and how it actually is beautiful and plesent if you have with it needs for it. And lovu_lovu_aiba was adorable enough to agree to help me with it ^^ So that is why I say, it won't be exactly the story I'd let my kids read. And it will sure be the story my parents will NEVER know I wrote XDD
Chapter 18
Jun moaned loud. With every thrust, with every word, with every minute passing, Jun found himself sinking in the situation more and more. If it was someone else, anyone else, he would have felt raped. But this was Sho… He was already his. There was nothing Sho could steal from him… Sho already had all of him. And no matter how much he wanted to fight back, Jun knew he would never had the power, guts or even the right to fight Sho back… Since, it was as Sho said. He was his creation…
Everything around him was spinning, his entire world revolving. His mind was more blank than it has ever been. He was feeling as if he was becoming deaf as well, since at one point, he became unable to hear. He couldn't hear his voice, though he knew for sure he was making sounds like all Hell. He couldn't hear Sho, though he knew the man was talking to him. He couldn't hear anything, though it was obvious there should have been sound. It all starded to lose color and shape, turning to black... A powerful, intense black, like he had never seen before...
"I don't want this... Stop... LEAVE ME ALONE!!" he screamed, stronger than ever.
He spind powerfully and felt out of the bed, falling on the floor with a big noise. Satoshi had waken up from when he heard him scream, and he was now staring at him amazed. Jun looked around him confused. His head was still spinning... He gaze at the floor and the surroundings of his room, as if he was unable to believe he was seeing them.
"It was just a dream..?" he said out-loud to himself, not even realizing that Satoshi was there.
"Master..?" the slave boy asked, quite amazed, since he had never seen Jun like that before.
He went down on the floor with him, putting his hands beyond Jun's armpits and helping him get back in bed. The younger man had his lips parted, as he was looking in a empty space, looking so shocked and somehow traumatized. Satoshi found himself thinking that he would have selled his soul to the Devil in order to be able to read minds and know exactly what the Hell was Jun thinking in that second. Even if someone would have hitted him with a baseball bar in the head he would have looked less crush than this, Satoshi thought.
"Master..." he tried talking to him again, though it didn't seem like Jun was hearing him.
The black haired one got up from bed, walking silently to the bathroom and closing the door in his back. He stared at himself in the mirror for a second. His face hadn't looked this pale since he was 12 and he got beat up by a gang of bullies... He turned the water on the sink on, spleashing some on his face, trying to recover. It had all been a nightmare..? When did he felt asleep? Why did he dreamed that? He didn't understood... He washed his face, trying to come back to reality. He was sure that Satoshi was already suspecting something. 'Why the fuck did I dream that... What the Hell? What the..! Ahh... I am loosing my fucking damn mind...' He was thinking in his mind, while he was drying his face with a soft towel. Satoshi had just finished changing his cloths when Jun re-entered the bedroom. He took a quick gaze at the watch and saw it was only 8 AM. His slave stared at him with a worried expression.
"Are you alright, sir..?" he asked.
"I am fine... I am okay, Satoshi. All I need a hot cup of coffee, cigarettes and silence... I promise you I will recover." Jun said, looking at him.
"Very well, master... I will go prepare the coffee and fix you a morning snack." Satoshi said.
"Do that... I'll just changed my cloths and be down in a minute..."
Satoshi made a fast, low bow and left the room in a hurry, not wanting to disturb Jun. Left alone, Jun felt in his knees, next to the bed and brought his knees to his chest, hugging himself. He was unable to believe he actually had that sort of a nightmare. And it was so vivid, so painfuly real... He was able to feel the feelings he had been living through that dream. He had been 100 percent sure that he had past over the fear he had been feeling for Sho in the past. After all, Sho was now his best friend, who respected him and loved him and would have gone to Hell and back to protect him.
"What the fuck... Don't I trust him..?" Jun said, slowly.
His cellphone rang and it almost made him jump of surprise. He stared at it as an idiot for a pair of seconds, before picking it up and looking at Sho's name that was sparkling on the screen. His hands started shaking all of a sudden. He needed to calm down...
"Hi King..." he said in the receiver after answering.
"... What?"
Sho's voice said amazed. "Dude, you haven't called me that for the past 10 years."
"Right... I am sorry..."
"Are you alright, Jun? You sound traumatized. Did something happened?"
"Just a bad dream..." Jun said, covering his face with his hand. "I will be alright..."
"Do you need help with anything?"
"No... I am alright... Trust me, I will be fine in no time. Why did you called, anyway..?"
"Well, I was wondering if you could come by my house later on today. Since is saturday and we both don't work, I was thinking of doing something fun."
"Fun..?" Jun asked, the images of the nightmares hitting him in the head and making his body shiver.
"A exchange. We never did that. And I think we know and trust each other strong enough to be able to do it without worring. I give you my Masaki for Satoshi. One night. In the morning we exchange back."
"I see..." Jun said.
"So..? Do you want or not?"
"Yeah.. Yeah, yeah, I guess is fine with me, I don't know... Let me get back on you in like 1 or 2 hours... I still haven't fully waken up..."
"Okay, man. Call me whenever you feel better. Take care."
Jun closed the phone and put it back on the nightstand, holding his knees to his chest once more. "I think I need to pay some visit to my psychologist again..."
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"What did Jun said?" Nino asked, as soon as Sho entered the kitchen.
He had been making coffee while Masaki fixed the breakfast, waiting for their master to call his friends. Sho had told them a night before he wanted to do a exchange. He had never done it before, though it was a very common and almost fashionable thing in the BDSM community, so he thought it was about time they give it a go. He had also explained them that he trusted Jun 100% so no one should worry. But Masaki was enchanded by the idea at all.
"He was sounding like a zombie. He had a nightmare or something and he wasn't totally awake yet. He sounded dubious but I believe he will agree. He said he'll call me back later." Sho announced, taking a place at the table.
"I can't believe you want to sell me..." Masaki said, making Sho and Nino both laugh.
"I won't sell you, Masaki. Is just an exchange and is only for one single night." Sho tried to explain him again.
"But why me? Why don't you give him to Matsumoto-san?" Masaki insited, pointing at Nino.
"Because I want Nino to take part in it. Him and Satoshi make a quite cute pair. Beside, Satoshi is your best friend. Do you think you would be able to have sex with him?" Sho asked, drinking a bit of his coffee.
"Of course not, he is like my brother!" Masaki said.
"Indeed." Sho said, with a smile.
"Fine...." Masaki said, letting his head down.
"Don't be so stressed. You heard, is only one night. Beside, even if Jun is a hardcore master, he is our friend. I am sure he won't go psycho on you or anything." Nino said, slapping Masaki slowly on the back in a friendly way.
"Nino is right, Masaki. You need to relax. It will all be fine." Sho said. "Do you not trust me?"
"Of course I trust you, master... With my life..." Masaki said, looking at Sho.
"Then just belive me. Nothing bad will happen to you, I promise." Sho said, on a tender and encouraging voice.
"Did you said that Jun had a nightmare?" Nino asked, in order to change the subject a bit.
"Yeah. At least, is what he told me. That he had a bad dream. He sounded really freaked out." Sho said, drinking some more of his coffee.
"Is hard trying to image Matsumoto-san having a nightmare..." Masaki said.
"Indeed. And is even harder to image him freaking out. What on earth could scare that guy?" Nino asked, scratching his chin.
"I have no idea. It did surprised me as well." Sho confessed.
"I guess everyone has a weakness, huh..." Masaki said, staring at the floor.
"They do, indeed... Even guys who seem to be made out of stone and metal." Sho agreed. "But I would really like to find out what the Hell did he dream. I also hope he's fine..."
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Satoshi looked at Jun for a second when he saw him entering the kitchen, but left his head down fast. He was not sure what exactly had happened to his master or what did the man dream, but he knew for sure that he was not in a good mood. He purred coffee into a cup and placed it on the table, together with some cookies and a fruit salad, in case Jun was hungry. He also brought the ash tray and a new pack of cigarettes together with a lighter, since Jun had said he wanted to smoke. He pushed the chiar a bit back so his master would sit on it, and knelt on the floor, with his head down when the man did so.
Jun was feeling lost and distracted. He didn't pay much attention to his slave. He opened the pack of Marlboro and took a cigarrette out of it, lighting it up and taking a long puff. All those images from the last night dream didn't seem to want to get the Hell out of his brain. He had never felt so tired in his life.. It was agonizing...
"Satoshi... What happened last night? Refresh my memory..." he asked.
"Well, you came back from work at around 8 o'clock, master. We eated dinner together and talked about master Sakurai. I have told you about how he confessed to Masaki and Nino about his past. You seemed quite interested on the subject. We stayed a bit with Ryo and discuss some things with him and then went to the bedroom. We had some fun and went to sleep." Satoshi said, making sure not to forget anything.
"I see... Yeah..." Jun said, sounding as if he was trapped into his own little world.
But he was hearing what Satoshi was saying. And it did made him remember. Some of the nightmare disappeared when he remembered. Or, at least, it seemed less real. It was still tormenting him on the inside... He wanted to crush something...
"Are you fine, master...? You are scaring me..." Satoshi said, looking at Jun worried.
"I am perfectly fine..." Jun said.
"Yeah, right... And I am the Barbie Doll..." Satoshi said sarcastically.
"Did you just made fun of me?" Jun said, turning his head on the left and staring straight at Satoshi.
"N-No! I'm sorry..." Satoshi said fast.
Jun kept looking at him, really pissed. He slapped him hard across the face, making him fall, his nose bleeding. It took Satoshi by surprise, and therefore caused him no pleasure. Blood drops hit the floor, letting dark red stains on the white grit stone. Jun felt the need to beat the Hell out of Satoshi, though the poor boy had done nothing wrong. He was so mad, so furious. The fear, anxiety and panic he had felt when he woke up had vanished, being replaced by pure anger and fury. However, he didn't wanted to punish his slave for something that was not his fault. He was not that type of a master. He needed to calm down...
"Go wash your face and come back and clean the floor. Then get the fuck out of my face. I don't wanna see you or anyone else... Lock yourself together with Ryosuke in his room. I am mad and need to calm down." Jun said, straight and clear.
"Yes, master..." Satoshi said, getting up and going fast to the bathroom. 'What on earth happened to you..?'
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Masaki helped Nino clean the dishes after they all finished their breakfast and have fully woken up. He kept thinking about the night that was up to come, and how he was going to be trade with Satoshi. His subconscience was fully aware that his master adored him and that all this exchange thing was only a game, but his conscience was way too freaked out to realize it as well. After they cleaned the kitchen and the living-room, Nino announced that he'll go play some video games, before going in his bedroom and locking himself in it. The games were not a priority and he was not as desperate to finish those levels as he left his master and friend think, but he knew Sho and Masaki really needed some time alone.
Sho went to his room together with Masaki, sitting on the bed and dragging the younger one with him too. He made him sat his head in his lap and started caressing his hair with his fingers. It was so relaxing and calming to play with Masaki's beautiful, soft hair... It was giving Sho a feeling of peace and happiness. The slave could not complain, since he was enjoying it just as much as his master, maybe even more. He was feeling Sho's long, tender fingers dancing upon his head, as if he was playing a delicate song on a invisible piano. He closed his eyes and left himself be traveled into a calm and beautiful world. It felt so good...
"Master..." he said, on a tender, loving voice.
He took Sho's hand in both of his hands and brought it to his face, starting to press small kisses all over. He loved Sho's hands a lot. They were so soft and his palm was big enough to cup all his cheek in. He looked at Sho with a innocent smile, and Sho smiled back at him.
"You are a very adoring slave, Masaki..." Sho said, caressing the boy's face.
"I love you, Master..." the younger said.
"I love you more..." Sho said.
He brought his slave closer and drove him into a kiss, pushing him down with his head on the pillow and getting on top of him. He took Masaki's t-shirt off from one single fast move and started dropping kisses all over the bare chest of his loving slave. Masaki was moaning and letting himself be taken away. But all of a sudden Sho stopped and looked at him.
"What is it, master...?" Masaki dared to ask.
"Do you know I can make you come without touching your cock or your ass at all? And you will come at my command." Sho said, smiling.
"...That is impossible..." Masaki said, not being able to believe such thing.
"You wanna see?" Sho said, feeling as if he was making a bet with his best friend.
Masaki giggled and looked at his master with a "challenge accepted" kind of face. He knew Sho knew him a lot and that their relationship was extremely bound and all that, but he really doubted someone could order someone else to come. It seemed very unbelieveable. After Sho finished undressing Masaki, he got out of the bed and search for something. It was the last thing Masaki saw since he was blindfolded the minute after. He felt some big, leather handcuffs securing his hands. Though they were keeping him for moving, they felt comfortable and good upon his wrists. He had no idea where the Hell Sho was, and it was not helping him at all that the man was not making any sound. He left a soft, wet kiss on the right side of his neck and he shivered and turned his head, wanting to feel Sho next to him. But Sho was not there. Another kiss, this time on his back, made him shiver once more and turn around, in his desperate try to catch his master. But the man was not there again.
Sho was trying really hard to stop himself from laughing while teasing Masaki. His slave's confused expression while turning from side to side, trying to 'grab' him, was beyond adorable and he felt the need to just hug him and kiss him passionate. But this was a game so he had to stop his urges from doing something else.
"Masaki..." he said, on a almost whispered voice, but loud enough for his slave to hear him.
"Master?" Masaki asked confused, wanting to know where Sho was.
"How do you feel right now?" Sho asked, on the same slow, deep voice.
"I... I don't know... I feel... I..." Masaki babbled, unable to express himself at all.
"You are turned on..." Sho said, looking at his slaves member. "Are you having fun?"
"In a weird way... yes, I am..." Masaki admited.
Sho didn't said anything anymore. He placed the tips of his fingers on Masaki's back, going down on his spine in a delicate way, while the younger man was shaking and bitting his lower lip. Sho was not doing anything special, Masaki knew it. But somehow, it was making him so horny... It was nothing very kinky about all this, yet it all felt so sexual. It all felt so good. He felt Sho's hands travel on his chest too, down to his belly-button then up, upon his nipples, on his collarbones, on his neck and chin...
"Master..." Masaki said, his member getting harder each second.
Sho played with his fingers on Masaki's lips, before entering two of them into his mouth. The blonde could feel his master moving his fingers inside of his mouth, spinning around his tongue, pushing down his throat, not far enough to gag him, just enough to give him the impression he was sucking a cock. Sho started smiling when he heard Masaki moaning. The boy was on his knees, his ass resting on his feet, his hands tide up at his back, his eyes tide with Sho's tie, sucking on Sho's fingers. From the outside, if someone saw it, might have looked weird and totally unpleasent. But Masaki was having the time of his life. He was not understanding why either... He felt Sho's lips on his left nipple, licking all around it, and he tried his best not to lose control of the situation and bite his master's fingers which were still playing in his mouth. By the time Sho started sucking his left nipple and squeezing his right one with his hands, Masaki had already started dripping pre-cum. He couldn't believe this... He was about to come and Sho had not touched any of his intimate zones yet.
Sho knew he was doing a good job, so he kept caressing and kissing Masaki, playing with his body but avoiding the most important parts. After 10 more minutes, he grabbed Masaki's both hands that were tide up on his back with his right hand, not touching him at all anymore but keeping him secure.
"Do you want to come?" he whispred in his ear.
"Yes... Yes, master... Please, make me come, master..." Masaki found himself saying, though he had never thought he would say such words.
"You can come..." Sho said. He kissed his back slowly, and left his chin on Masaki's shoulder, bitting the love of his left ear. "Come now. I command you!"
Masaki didn't understood why, but his body answered to Sho's voice almost instantly. He felt his hot member almost exploding, the juice, white liquid shooting out of it, on the red sheets from his master's bed. His breath almost cut, his body weakened, as he felt himself drowning in a wave of infinite pleasure. Sho smiled and caressed Masaki's head gently.
"Good boy..." he said. "Now is my turn to come too."
"Master..." Masaki said, hopping that meant what he thought it meant.
He heard the sound of Sho undressing, and the sound of his cloths getting thrown away. He felt the older man sitting down on the bed, and his hands grabbing his waist. Sho was already hard as a stone, since playing so much with his slave had turn him on like Hell. He put his hand on the head of Masaki's cock, rubbing it gently yet strong, making the man moan loud. He left his back on the wall from behind him and brought Masaki closer to him, making him sit in his knees exactly above his member. He pushed him down, in a demanding way yet not brutal, entering him from the first thrust. They both moaned, Masaki stronger than him. Sho took his hands away from his slave, looking at him.
"Move yourself alone..." he told him.
"Yes, master..." Masaki said, hurring to obey.
He started moving up and down, slowly at first and faster after, listening closely to every sound Sho was making, to be sure his master was enjoying it. He left his head on his back, whising so much he would have been able to see. He bit his lip, he wanted to ask Sho to touch him but he was not sure if he was allowed to ask him what to do. He kept going, creating a good rhythm. He had been blindfolded so many times that he somehow developed a 6-th sense. He was able to see even with his eyes closed. He was able to feel Sho's presence better, smell him better, hear him better, which was letting him know exactly what Sho was doing and how was he feeling, as if he was staring at him.
When Sho came, deep inside him, Masaki shouted, and for some reason, he wondered if Nino had heard him. Sho pushed his slave's head on his chest, still inside him, both of them relaxing and smiling satisfied. After few minutes of total bliss, Sho removed himself from Masaki and untide his hands and eyes, looking at him with a smile. They got dressed and sat back together in the bed, hugging.
"I don't get it... How could I come when you ordered me to? Why my body listened to you?" Masaki asked confused.
"Is called auto-suggestion. I have told you that you can come on my command. Though you doubted it, deep inside, in your subconscinece, you have 100% trust for me. Your brain was telling you that it will happen, so when I said the words, your body answered me. Is psychology." Sho said, with his beautiful smile on his perfect face.
"You are a genius..." Masaki said, hugging his master tight.
"Haha, no, I'm not." Sho laughed. "I just know some stuff others don't."
"You are a genius to me." Masaki insisted, kissing Sho's neck.
"You are an angel to me, Masaki... I am so happy you're mine." Sho said, caressing the boy's head.
"I am happy to be yours, master..." Masaki said.
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Jun kept thinking and thinking of Sho's phone call... A exchange. He had done it before, some times, with past slaves. It was fun at times, it was annoying other times. But most of the time, it was pretty good. Masaki was an attractive man and a good slave... And it wouldn't hurt to give Satoshi away for once. He grabbed his phone and dialed Sho's number.
"Look, I thought of it... I'm in. I'll come with Satoshi at your house tonight at 8 PM." he said.
"Great! We'll have such a great time, you'll see!"
A/N: I am BACK! Fuck yeah. And here is the new chapter. I made all the previous chapter be a dream at my master's request. My master said that the previous chapter was good and that I described the rules of the masters really well, but that in real life, this would never happen in between two masters who are friends. So he told me to leave it as it is, but make it as if it didn't really happen. So I came up with this. In the next chapter, it will be Junba, Ohmiya and Yama Pair so get your asses ready for that! XD
Also, I have an announcement to make! I made one more journal for myself, in which I will post things related strictly to me, my real life and BDSM. Since I saw that some of you seem quite interesed in my personal experience and my relationship with my master, and since I also like talking about it and share with you guys what I'm up to, what I've done new, what inspires me and so on, I decided to make this. It will be Friends Only, for obvious reasons, especially since it will contain extremely personal things and some very sexual explicit things. But, all of you who wanna know more about me and/or who wanna understand more about a real BDSM lifestyle, can add me and I will add you guys back.
Is here ---> http://shokundaisukirl.livejournal.com/
Hope I'll see you guys around ^__^
As always, comments are loved! Next chapter comes tomorrow cause posts every day again restarted. YEEYYY ^___^ Love you all! Bye ^-^