Ain't this life so sweet?
I know I said i wouldn't update for awhile, but some stuff was on my mind. I was reading my journal and it felt like I was reading about someone else. I was reading emails from jimmy on it and I couldn't fathom loving him. I can't picture living my life with someone other than Ryan. We watched the notebook tonight and we cried at the end because it reminded us of us. He loves me like Noah loved Ally. We have honest to god true love. And with that said yes it bugged me that Jimmy didn't call when he got back. Not because I miss him. more the fact that I want him to miss me. I want to win. I love Ryan. More than anything. But dammit I want you to still want me. I want to hurt you. I want to show you that I found someone. It's a pride thing really.