I won't decorate my love
It has been a long time. A long time since I have felt this way. But I know deep down I have NEVER felt this way before. This is it. This is real love. I had heard so many describe it before. Tried so many times to convince myself I felt it. Now..it is here. And it is mutual. I will be sitting in bed with you and look and you and it will strike me how AMAZING you are. Like I am looking at you from new eyes. I can't seem to spend enough time with you or be close enough to you. And you get it. You always get it. That is part of the reason I love you. It may sound trite, but you do complete me. The calm that you have brought it nice, but I have changed. It is tough because I am neglecting everyone else in my life and it isn't because they aren't as important. No it is that the feeling I have with you is so amazing. I have to have it all the time. So as you sleep my love right next to me my love it is nice to know what it feels like to be whole and have that love I have always dreamed of. It is a bit sad though. I am officially an adult. I have turned a page and Alas this may be my last journal entry for awhile. Some things are too special to be shared and that is the first time I have EVER uttered those words. To any who wondered what became of the mostly loveable whore? Well my good friends she finally found the one man who was man enough to keep her faithful and happy. Good bye old life. Here is to tomorrow.