Thought
I realized that all day I have been thinking about a person who probably doesn't even want to talk to me. It's funny in a way, but sad at the same time.
I realized that I have ten missed calls on my phone- from the whole day and I am not sad I missed them.
I realized that I am still very red from the sunburn, but it is not as bad as it was. (Thank God!)
I realized that I should get contacts, because glasses are getting on my nerves, even though contacts scare me.
I realized that I forgot about my karma book and haven't been doing well on remembering things of karma- but have actually sub-consciously been doing well anyways.
I realized that I feel really lonely and wish that I could cuddle, but the only person who I could cuddle is in a depressed phase and the other person, well, is still not talking to me.
I realized that I am rambling and should really find something better to post about.
Like this: I can't stand mouth noises and I swear I will not have kids for a long time!!! My nephew decided he wanted to be insecure yesterday, so I let him sleep in my room last night. He likes to sleep on the floor, he thinks it's a camp-out, no sweat off my back, so I let him. And boy was he restless! He kicked everything under my bed, kept smacking his lips, and ultimately not letting me have any sleep. I could consider this a form of practice, but blah... I love my nephew, I really do, but sometimes I feel like a mom a lot more than I should. Yarr.
Noah and I had dinner tonight. It was kind of sad.. We didn't really talk a lot and he just seems so down and apparently doesn't know what it is. I think it is because we opened up to be able to see other people- even though he doesn't want to- but I do, and will. Maybe it's not that. Either way, I didn't eat much due to my huge lunch with the office group- which btw, was VERY good! Ugh. I hate not knowing. We're always so open, I mean- we have become best friends, and tonight was just eww. I didn't even get any good kisses. Damn.
I hope this person I want to talk to will wake up. Grr. I go, I take care of junk, I talk to God and ask what the heck is up!? I am confused.
I realized that I have ten missed calls on my phone- from the whole day and I am not sad I missed them.
I realized that I am still very red from the sunburn, but it is not as bad as it was. (Thank God!)
I realized that I should get contacts, because glasses are getting on my nerves, even though contacts scare me.
I realized that I forgot about my karma book and haven't been doing well on remembering things of karma- but have actually sub-consciously been doing well anyways.
I realized that I feel really lonely and wish that I could cuddle, but the only person who I could cuddle is in a depressed phase and the other person, well, is still not talking to me.
I realized that I am rambling and should really find something better to post about.
Like this: I can't stand mouth noises and I swear I will not have kids for a long time!!! My nephew decided he wanted to be insecure yesterday, so I let him sleep in my room last night. He likes to sleep on the floor, he thinks it's a camp-out, no sweat off my back, so I let him. And boy was he restless! He kicked everything under my bed, kept smacking his lips, and ultimately not letting me have any sleep. I could consider this a form of practice, but blah... I love my nephew, I really do, but sometimes I feel like a mom a lot more than I should. Yarr.
Noah and I had dinner tonight. It was kind of sad.. We didn't really talk a lot and he just seems so down and apparently doesn't know what it is. I think it is because we opened up to be able to see other people- even though he doesn't want to- but I do, and will. Maybe it's not that. Either way, I didn't eat much due to my huge lunch with the office group- which btw, was VERY good! Ugh. I hate not knowing. We're always so open, I mean- we have become best friends, and tonight was just eww. I didn't even get any good kisses. Damn.
I hope this person I want to talk to will wake up. Grr. I go, I take care of junk, I talk to God and ask what the heck is up!? I am confused.