So I was in the ER today...
Today I had to go to the Emergency Room. I was working my 8 to 12 shift at the hospital and I had the worst headache in the back of my head. Around 10 my right arm went completely numb. Then I couldnt pronounce my sentences right, I still cant very well. A few minutes later My left arm, right arm and the right side of my face was completely numb, and I was scared to death. I didnt want to tell anyone what was going on so I thought I would go back to the info desk... wrong.
I got in an elevator and a really nice nurse asked me if I was ok, and when I tried to tell her my words got all mixed up and I couldnt say what I wanted to. Thats when my tongue went numb as well. So the nurse, Molly, is like "we're going to the Emergency Room." She takes me down there in a wheelchair and they are asking me questions and I cant remember simple answers, like what is my phone number, and i was stuttering. It was scary as hell. Not to mention, none of my family was there. My heart was racing and I couldnt feel my face, tongue, or arms. When I tried to speak it came out like I was mentally handicapped. And I couldnt stop tearing up. That amazing nurse stayed with me until my grandparents showed up.
The attending nurse had called my mom at work and she was on her way, but my grandparents were already at the hospital waiting to pick me up from my shift. So they walk in, then my mom, and then this nice lady, I couldnt see her it was all blury, took me to a catscan. Apparently I do have something in my brain, but they think its always been there. whew. Then another male nurse comes in and says "your boyfriend is here." but my mom said i could only see him if I would try to pronounce my sentences cprrectly. So James came in. He was really scared, so was Sona, who was in the lobby. We were all really scared.
About an hour later they released me with a perscription, a monster headache and dizziness, saying that not only was I hyperventilating, I was dehydrated, and sick. If I hadnt come down when I did, I would have passed out. I came home and took a pill and just slept for 2 hours. my heart still wont stop racing, so we might have to go back.
It really made me think about how much you cant live your life out so slowly. Live everyday as if it was your last. I was very scared today, not knowing what was going to happen. Im sure you've all felt that way. I really learned today that if it was my last I wouldnt have done everything I wanted to. Please take every day as if its your last. Dont hold back your feelings, just let yourself take a risk. Also last night I talked to someone for quite a while about life and things, and that made me think more than you can know.He was actually worth talking to. go figure. I just want you all to know how amazing you are and how much I truly luv all of you. Thank you for standing out in my life.
Its times like these we learn to live again, its times like theses we give and give and give, its times like these we learn to love again, its times like these time and time again...
I got in an elevator and a really nice nurse asked me if I was ok, and when I tried to tell her my words got all mixed up and I couldnt say what I wanted to. Thats when my tongue went numb as well. So the nurse, Molly, is like "we're going to the Emergency Room." She takes me down there in a wheelchair and they are asking me questions and I cant remember simple answers, like what is my phone number, and i was stuttering. It was scary as hell. Not to mention, none of my family was there. My heart was racing and I couldnt feel my face, tongue, or arms. When I tried to speak it came out like I was mentally handicapped. And I couldnt stop tearing up. That amazing nurse stayed with me until my grandparents showed up.
The attending nurse had called my mom at work and she was on her way, but my grandparents were already at the hospital waiting to pick me up from my shift. So they walk in, then my mom, and then this nice lady, I couldnt see her it was all blury, took me to a catscan. Apparently I do have something in my brain, but they think its always been there. whew. Then another male nurse comes in and says "your boyfriend is here." but my mom said i could only see him if I would try to pronounce my sentences cprrectly. So James came in. He was really scared, so was Sona, who was in the lobby. We were all really scared.
About an hour later they released me with a perscription, a monster headache and dizziness, saying that not only was I hyperventilating, I was dehydrated, and sick. If I hadnt come down when I did, I would have passed out. I came home and took a pill and just slept for 2 hours. my heart still wont stop racing, so we might have to go back.
It really made me think about how much you cant live your life out so slowly. Live everyday as if it was your last. I was very scared today, not knowing what was going to happen. Im sure you've all felt that way. I really learned today that if it was my last I wouldnt have done everything I wanted to. Please take every day as if its your last. Dont hold back your feelings, just let yourself take a risk. Also last night I talked to someone for quite a while about life and things, and that made me think more than you can know.He was actually worth talking to. go figure. I just want you all to know how amazing you are and how much I truly luv all of you. Thank you for standing out in my life.
Its times like these we learn to live again, its times like theses we give and give and give, its times like these we learn to love again, its times like these time and time again...