Minutiae, a Post in Which I Worry.
Minutiae, minutiae, details, details, details, tiny little specks of nagging things, little "what-ifs" and "wait-a-secs" that cloud my vision and ideals. The minuscule moments of self doubt that I know are silly but pull me to a grinding halt. How do I trust instinct when it's failed me so many times? One simply should take a deep breath and start over. So I'll do that. Minutiae shouldn't be THAT big a deal, they're miniature, but when you're dealing with miniatures it simply *is* a big deal. I'm not saying that taking on a simple 4 room dollhouse was too much for me, but my ideas are clouding my advancement. I am following instructions, to a point. It would be easier if I finish and paint the walls and exterior before I put it together, but I don't know what I want to DO with them until I can see it done. So I'll struggle with paint and paper and carpeting once it's done. I did paint the windows though, and while I initially wanted them stark white, the longer they've sat there, blinding white and glossy, the less I like them. Problem number 2, I don't want them stark blinding glossy white on the interior, but this particular set doesn't sandwich the windows, so I'll have to remove the plastic "glass" and start over, hoping that whatever color I pick will fit the eventual room they become a part of.
I am aware that to most people this is really simple and easily dealt with. Find a color, repaint, go on with life. However I know myself, and I know that a single wrong detail will ruin the entire thing for me.
Therein lies the entirety of why the dollhouse kind of scares me. I don't know what I want to do inside yet either. It can be a three room or a four room, two rooms have to be on the bottom for support, but the dividing wall can come out on top. I think I'd like to keep it at 4 rooms, a bedroom, a study/library/music room, a kitchen, and I can't decide what else. I considered a greenhouse/mud room sort of room, just not sure how to do it. Most people will add a nursery, but I'm not too keen on that idea. It's hard enough sitting in the room that was to be the nursery without having to design a tiny one. My psyche can't take it, lol.
Oddly enough, even as I sit here and write this all down (because it helps me organize a plan in the brain) I can see that I don't need to worry about these things right now... the walls aren't even up, but at least I can start trying to make rudimentary decisions about the rooms and which should be which, and that helps.
I think tonight I'll be taking the windows apart and starting over. I have to paint them at this point, but I think I know where to go with it.
I am aware that to most people this is really simple and easily dealt with. Find a color, repaint, go on with life. However I know myself, and I know that a single wrong detail will ruin the entire thing for me.
Therein lies the entirety of why the dollhouse kind of scares me. I don't know what I want to do inside yet either. It can be a three room or a four room, two rooms have to be on the bottom for support, but the dividing wall can come out on top. I think I'd like to keep it at 4 rooms, a bedroom, a study/library/music room, a kitchen, and I can't decide what else. I considered a greenhouse/mud room sort of room, just not sure how to do it. Most people will add a nursery, but I'm not too keen on that idea. It's hard enough sitting in the room that was to be the nursery without having to design a tiny one. My psyche can't take it, lol.
Oddly enough, even as I sit here and write this all down (because it helps me organize a plan in the brain) I can see that I don't need to worry about these things right now... the walls aren't even up, but at least I can start trying to make rudimentary decisions about the rooms and which should be which, and that helps.
I think tonight I'll be taking the windows apart and starting over. I have to paint them at this point, but I think I know where to go with it.