Wrestling with Ennui
I've been kind of meh lately. Well, the last few months to be honest. It's finally starting to bother me though. It may be the cold, it may be the state of the world, it may be a rock in my shoe. I don't know. What do you do when you realize (once again, as you do three or four times every year) that you've got to do something different? Normally I decide on some large change, some big project, some drastic reformation of the self, I paint a room, throw away some old crap, I quit my job, etc. I think that I've reached the bottom of that well though. I think I've reached the point in my life where things aren't going to change much more. That's ok, things are good, I just wish they were more entertaining. So no, nothing's bad really, just bland. Day to Day.
We have decided we need a real vacation though. We're saving as much time as we can for the next 18 or so months in the hope that we can take a long breather, hopefully with friends, other couples who have the inclination to do so. Jeff was hesitant about a group vacation, but I'm pretty sure he realizes as much as I do that we do spend *every.waking.minute* together. As much as we love that about us, it's not always healthy, especially as nobody stresses you out as much as the one you love the most. I just need to stop succumbing to the urge to lay around the house all day and fake sick, or have friends get married or die or other random crap that takes up little bits of vacation over the course of the next year. I need to decide where to go though. As much as I'd love something beachy and relaxing, my body in a swimsuit is a less attractive sight than it was 100 lbs ago. I suppose I could get back on the weight loss train... lose 50 more before we go? Eh, we'll see. I've been pretty damn lazy lately. ;)
We have decided we need a real vacation though. We're saving as much time as we can for the next 18 or so months in the hope that we can take a long breather, hopefully with friends, other couples who have the inclination to do so. Jeff was hesitant about a group vacation, but I'm pretty sure he realizes as much as I do that we do spend *every.waking.minute* together. As much as we love that about us, it's not always healthy, especially as nobody stresses you out as much as the one you love the most. I just need to stop succumbing to the urge to lay around the house all day and fake sick, or have friends get married or die or other random crap that takes up little bits of vacation over the course of the next year. I need to decide where to go though. As much as I'd love something beachy and relaxing, my body in a swimsuit is a less attractive sight than it was 100 lbs ago. I suppose I could get back on the weight loss train... lose 50 more before we go? Eh, we'll see. I've been pretty damn lazy lately. ;)