"I will remember you said that when robots take over the world"
I would complain. I would try to tell you what is going on, but the truth is, I am tired. I just don't know what to do anymore, and it pisses me off. I always know what to do. In class, with my friends (if they would just ask), and even with my mother's relationships.
But now I just don't know. I don't know how to go on living my life AND keep my marriage together. I really shouldn't be typing all this, but who cares? I am trying to keep everyone happy, but I know how that saying goes.
I suppose I should pray, but if I were Him, I wouldn't bother listening. I only seem to pray when I need something nowadays. Before...things (various occurances that I refuse to type here and now) happened, I used to thank God every chance I got. I know the digression started in high school.
I used to talk to Him at night before I went to sleep. Now I am trying to balance a job, a marriage (which seems to get more fragile the longer I stay away from Dusty), friendships, and my own time. When I get ready to go to bed, I guess I am so tired and frazzled that I just forget.
Have you ever felt that all you have to do in life is live one day at a time? Take it bit by bit and get by without causing too much pain? And then there are those days that you feel the life you're living is a big dream? Somedays it's a bad one, some days it's a good one, but a dream nonetheless... and all you can hope to do is wake up?
"Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper I love you
Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I’m longin’ to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Yes, dream a little dream of me."
-Louis Armstrong and Ella Fitzgerald
But now I just don't know. I don't know how to go on living my life AND keep my marriage together. I really shouldn't be typing all this, but who cares? I am trying to keep everyone happy, but I know how that saying goes.
I suppose I should pray, but if I were Him, I wouldn't bother listening. I only seem to pray when I need something nowadays. Before...things (various occurances that I refuse to type here and now) happened, I used to thank God every chance I got. I know the digression started in high school.
I used to talk to Him at night before I went to sleep. Now I am trying to balance a job, a marriage (which seems to get more fragile the longer I stay away from Dusty), friendships, and my own time. When I get ready to go to bed, I guess I am so tired and frazzled that I just forget.
Have you ever felt that all you have to do in life is live one day at a time? Take it bit by bit and get by without causing too much pain? And then there are those days that you feel the life you're living is a big dream? Somedays it's a bad one, some days it's a good one, but a dream nonetheless... and all you can hope to do is wake up?
"Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper I love you
Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I’m longin’ to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Yes, dream a little dream of me."
-Louis Armstrong and Ella Fitzgerald