Friendly Fire.
Who, What, When, Where, Why, and How
That certainly sounded good at the time.*inhales deeply then yawns* This morning presents me with two choices. I could go home and try to get some note cards and studying done for Japanese, fall asleep, sleep well, and then get up for work. I could also go to school early, sit there for nearly 3 hours, be tired as hell for my Japanese class, go home, not get any good sleep, and wake up for work. I'm really thinking, considering where this math class and test sit in my mind, I may end up going with the first option. I obviously don't want to go home and straight to bed as I would be up too early that way. However, if I can stay focused and get some note cards and study time in, I think it will end up being the better choice as far as all of my grades go. It also means when I have to stay out at school till nearly 2pm tomorrow, I won't fall asleep driving home lol. (Not that I would anyway but still)
Holy crap it's Tuesday! Wed will be here before I know it. I'm pretty sure tomorrow will drag the fuck on to no end. Thursday shouldn't be so bad. I'll be tired all day and constantly scrambling. I actually have a feeling Thursday will fly by quickly.
I can't complain completely. The last four weeks have completely vanished to me. Soaked with long conversations and little sleep, they drifted by quietly. She has caused irrevocable changes in my life these last 5 weeks.... let alone 5 years. She lets me know I'm not a lone. She will always be there to take my hand in hers. I know I'm supposed to be the man of the relationship, but my strength shines because of her. She is the confidence and I am the will. She says "it can be done", and I nod and begin to push.
The last week has been rough. A great deal of uncomfortable subjects have been brought to light, and at several turns, despite what some would claim, we've faced some really tough issues. However, with her, all of those things seem so small and dismissible. I won't hide from it; there have been moments where I've felt very weak and exposed. I believe her and I probably both have. However, it only takes a moment of concentration to stand back up and to walk past the issue at hand. I don't know if it's her, I, or the two of us, but we have the ability to face things and not back down. That is something in which to be grateful.
Letting her out of my arms reach in a few days will be the second hardest moment of my life. The first, was not telling her how I felt 3 years ago.
That certainly sounded good at the time.*inhales deeply then yawns* This morning presents me with two choices. I could go home and try to get some note cards and studying done for Japanese, fall asleep, sleep well, and then get up for work. I could also go to school early, sit there for nearly 3 hours, be tired as hell for my Japanese class, go home, not get any good sleep, and wake up for work. I'm really thinking, considering where this math class and test sit in my mind, I may end up going with the first option. I obviously don't want to go home and straight to bed as I would be up too early that way. However, if I can stay focused and get some note cards and study time in, I think it will end up being the better choice as far as all of my grades go. It also means when I have to stay out at school till nearly 2pm tomorrow, I won't fall asleep driving home lol. (Not that I would anyway but still)
Holy crap it's Tuesday! Wed will be here before I know it. I'm pretty sure tomorrow will drag the fuck on to no end. Thursday shouldn't be so bad. I'll be tired all day and constantly scrambling. I actually have a feeling Thursday will fly by quickly.
I can't complain completely. The last four weeks have completely vanished to me. Soaked with long conversations and little sleep, they drifted by quietly. She has caused irrevocable changes in my life these last 5 weeks.... let alone 5 years. She lets me know I'm not a lone. She will always be there to take my hand in hers. I know I'm supposed to be the man of the relationship, but my strength shines because of her. She is the confidence and I am the will. She says "it can be done", and I nod and begin to push.
The last week has been rough. A great deal of uncomfortable subjects have been brought to light, and at several turns, despite what some would claim, we've faced some really tough issues. However, with her, all of those things seem so small and dismissible. I won't hide from it; there have been moments where I've felt very weak and exposed. I believe her and I probably both have. However, it only takes a moment of concentration to stand back up and to walk past the issue at hand. I don't know if it's her, I, or the two of us, but we have the ability to face things and not back down. That is something in which to be grateful.
Letting her out of my arms reach in a few days will be the second hardest moment of my life. The first, was not telling her how I felt 3 years ago.