an update
i think it's time for a personal entry journal. i feel like i've been neglecting you. maybe i have. i don't know. but i still love you. so, yeah, just remember that. ♥
anyway, now that i'm done sucking up to my journal, i've got some issues i need to vent on. mainly, it's school. i'm thinking of dropping two of my classes. I know i'm failing them and it kinda sucks to have come all this way just to give up close to the end, but my GPA can't handle me failing two classes. And this way I'll just get a "W" on my transcript and have to take them again at a later time. hopefully with a different teacher.
both of these classes are taught by the same teacher and her teaching method just doesn't work for me. why? cuz she doesn't teach at all. she reads through power points and when she does try to explain something, she talks in circles and i'm pretty sure she doesn't have a clue about what she's saying. idk idk. but i can't handle it. i need examples and hands on, in class assignments that'll help me know what i'm doing and quizzes and tests and just something to help me figure out if i'm actually learning or not.
and i have her for two classes. tuesday night and thursday night. and to be honest, i don't even know what i'm supposed to be learning in my thursday night class. and ok, i know most of it is on me. i have little to no focus when it comes to school and the subjects of both classes are very cut and dry and i can't keep focused.
so yeah, there's that. and then there's another thing that i need to get off my chest.
I'm a very territorial, jealous and possessive person. i don't like being like that. I don't deserve to feel like this about anyone. But i can't help it because they were mine first, right? and idk, lol. i can't even explain it but i hate myself for it.
and on a completely random note: this guy in my scripting class. he was sitting next to me, right? and he was reading naruto fanfiction, lol. i asked him what he was reading he was all 'oh, naruto' and i'm like, 'oh' and then he added 'my friend wrote it and he wanted me to read it for him and tell him what he should change' on the outside i was 'ah' on the inside i was 'omg, what? boy writing fic? what?' lol cuz yeah, i'm sexist apparently, lmao. idk, it just boggled my mind. xD
sorry if this post offended anybody. <3
anyway, now that i'm done sucking up to my journal, i've got some issues i need to vent on. mainly, it's school. i'm thinking of dropping two of my classes. I know i'm failing them and it kinda sucks to have come all this way just to give up close to the end, but my GPA can't handle me failing two classes. And this way I'll just get a "W" on my transcript and have to take them again at a later time. hopefully with a different teacher.
both of these classes are taught by the same teacher and her teaching method just doesn't work for me. why? cuz she doesn't teach at all. she reads through power points and when she does try to explain something, she talks in circles and i'm pretty sure she doesn't have a clue about what she's saying. idk idk. but i can't handle it. i need examples and hands on, in class assignments that'll help me know what i'm doing and quizzes and tests and just something to help me figure out if i'm actually learning or not.
and i have her for two classes. tuesday night and thursday night. and to be honest, i don't even know what i'm supposed to be learning in my thursday night class. and ok, i know most of it is on me. i have little to no focus when it comes to school and the subjects of both classes are very cut and dry and i can't keep focused.
so yeah, there's that. and then there's another thing that i need to get off my chest.
I'm a very territorial, jealous and possessive person. i don't like being like that. I don't deserve to feel like this about anyone. But i can't help it because they were mine first, right? and idk, lol. i can't even explain it but i hate myself for it.
and on a completely random note: this guy in my scripting class. he was sitting next to me, right? and he was reading naruto fanfiction, lol. i asked him what he was reading he was all 'oh, naruto' and i'm like, 'oh' and then he added 'my friend wrote it and he wanted me to read it for him and tell him what he should change' on the outside i was 'ah' on the inside i was 'omg, what? boy writing fic? what?' lol cuz yeah, i'm sexist apparently, lmao. idk, it just boggled my mind. xD
sorry if this post offended anybody. <3