Ithaca, I love you, but your public transportation sucks.
Or "Kendra Doesn't Know What to do With Spare Time."
I suddenly am thinking I might go a little insane these first few weeks back at school.
I now realize that taking one less class than usual has freed up my schedule a huge amount, plus I won't be volunteering 4 hrs/week like last semester. However, I just assumed I'd fill that time with working harder on my photography and working at my job, maybe even getting a 2nd job.
Now I suddenly don't have a car, and I just checked the bus schedules- looks like good ol' TCAT won't be able to take me to work. And my possible job in the Commons doesn't have a place for me yet. So now I have at least 11 more free hours in my week from that, yet I'm stranded in my apartment, because the weather's too shitty to walk very far. Plus I won't be bringing in any money to help pay for a car once I find one. So that all rules out doing much for fun because I've got to be extremely frugal. Even a cheap used car is going to liquidate all I've saved and put me deeply in debt to my mom, so I won't be going out or buying drinks to party at home occasionally like I had planned. So much for being more social this semester- I can't even get up to the Circles. And no cheap-but-warm spring break road trip. (It'd be the first time I actually did "spring break", and I wasn't really set on it, so I don't really care about that). However, this also means no Miami trip this summer (thought it was going to finally be the year I visited Erica, guess not).
I guess I'm being a bit pessimistic all of a sudden, especially because I was in such buoyant spirits around New Years. Things never end up the way you plan, I know. I'm not bitter about it, just taking stock and realizing some things, and am a little surprised, that's all. I'm going to miss Kristen so badly this semester. I'm just going to have to focus and work really hard in all this sudden free time. I guess I'm just too prone to being lazy and sleeping too much when I'm not crazily busy. I actually like to work! I just don't like feeling stranded and not having the choice to come and go as I please. I feel a little trapped and limited by my lack of transportation and discretionary funds. I guess this just means I'll have to do a lot of walking and shoot more digital, less film. :) I just really don't want to be anti-social this semester. I wanted this to be starting over, in a way, and really enjoy the last semester before senior year. I'm sure I still will, and I'll find a car soon. I'm just being a cranky one right now. I think this is getting it out of my system. I just don't like being dependant upon other people, or feeling inhibited in my social life. I like to have choices. And I guess I'm not disciplined enough. Okay, time to wash out my hairdye and get ready for tomorrow. First day of classes, woop woop. Last semester of Junior Year. Let's hope it's an awesome one. Gnite!
I suddenly am thinking I might go a little insane these first few weeks back at school.
I now realize that taking one less class than usual has freed up my schedule a huge amount, plus I won't be volunteering 4 hrs/week like last semester. However, I just assumed I'd fill that time with working harder on my photography and working at my job, maybe even getting a 2nd job.
Now I suddenly don't have a car, and I just checked the bus schedules- looks like good ol' TCAT won't be able to take me to work. And my possible job in the Commons doesn't have a place for me yet. So now I have at least 11 more free hours in my week from that, yet I'm stranded in my apartment, because the weather's too shitty to walk very far. Plus I won't be bringing in any money to help pay for a car once I find one. So that all rules out doing much for fun because I've got to be extremely frugal. Even a cheap used car is going to liquidate all I've saved and put me deeply in debt to my mom, so I won't be going out or buying drinks to party at home occasionally like I had planned. So much for being more social this semester- I can't even get up to the Circles. And no cheap-but-warm spring break road trip. (It'd be the first time I actually did "spring break", and I wasn't really set on it, so I don't really care about that). However, this also means no Miami trip this summer (thought it was going to finally be the year I visited Erica, guess not).
I guess I'm being a bit pessimistic all of a sudden, especially because I was in such buoyant spirits around New Years. Things never end up the way you plan, I know. I'm not bitter about it, just taking stock and realizing some things, and am a little surprised, that's all. I'm going to miss Kristen so badly this semester. I'm just going to have to focus and work really hard in all this sudden free time. I guess I'm just too prone to being lazy and sleeping too much when I'm not crazily busy. I actually like to work! I just don't like feeling stranded and not having the choice to come and go as I please. I feel a little trapped and limited by my lack of transportation and discretionary funds. I guess this just means I'll have to do a lot of walking and shoot more digital, less film. :) I just really don't want to be anti-social this semester. I wanted this to be starting over, in a way, and really enjoy the last semester before senior year. I'm sure I still will, and I'll find a car soon. I'm just being a cranky one right now. I think this is getting it out of my system. I just don't like being dependant upon other people, or feeling inhibited in my social life. I like to have choices. And I guess I'm not disciplined enough. Okay, time to wash out my hairdye and get ready for tomorrow. First day of classes, woop woop. Last semester of Junior Year. Let's hope it's an awesome one. Gnite!