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Common sense tells me I should write a Trek fic or ten as a way to cope with the massive feels in the wake of STID. Common sense also tells me I should not bite off more than I can chew, as I still have a lot of fics to finish. There's the common sense telling me to sleep right now and the common sense reminding me that RL comes first, fandom second.
BUT THE FEELS. HOLY JESUS FUCK THESE FUCKING FEELS.
I mean. The bloody third act. The whole damn movie. Everything about it is this ball of rage and frustration and happiness and joy and they refuse to find common ground, leaving me with massive anxiety over the fucking thing.
So much potential gone to waste. And I am quite possibly mad enough at JJ & Co. to actually go ahead and move the fuck forward with my years-old fic idea because why not? An official canon version of it exists already; I might as well tidy up and write my version of it minus the incredibly problematic elements.
I feel like I'm dumbing down with every fic I write. I should read actual published books - the good kind, mind you - to fix that but IJ ust can't be arsed to sit my ass down and just read. It's probably something I actually really need but I just... don't have time. I feel like I never have time, even when I do have time and am sitting around doing fucking nothing.
I have such feels for all of my ships, by which I mean Sam/Tron, Jim/Bones, Spock/Uhura, Ten&Donna, and Sherlock&Joan. I just declared war on all my remaining attachments to Supernatural & Fandom; after I fucking finish editing this fucking old ass Dean/Cas fic I am cutting ties with the lot. I am unfollowing the actors and fandom-related twitter accounts and removing anyone who posts mainly Supernatural shit from my dash. I know I'm being unfair but after the racist bullshit I dealt with from people who were incredibly blatant SPN fans I just don't want to deal with the lot. If you're a friend beyond SPN, you're cool, but if the extent of our interactions stop after SPN, you're out.
Hell, I don't even do shit with my journals so this doesn't apply here. It just applies to twitter and Tumblr.
P.S. I will fucking eat you if you try to start shit with me over my being "racist" towards white people and having a lot of fun fucking around with Bendybuckets Cumberpatches' name. Bendydicks Crumblybuckets. Bendyfart Cookiepatch. Benedryl Cabbagehead. I got nothing against the man, personally. I have a LOT against all the things that led to the whitest white man to ever white being cast as Khan.
I'M NOT LETTING THAT THE FUCK GO, JJ & CO. FUCK YOU LOT.
P.P.S. Oh my god I need so much Jim/Bones fic.
BUT THE FEELS. HOLY JESUS FUCK THESE FUCKING FEELS.
I mean. The bloody third act. The whole damn movie. Everything about it is this ball of rage and frustration and happiness and joy and they refuse to find common ground, leaving me with massive anxiety over the fucking thing.
So much potential gone to waste. And I am quite possibly mad enough at JJ & Co. to actually go ahead and move the fuck forward with my years-old fic idea because why not? An official canon version of it exists already; I might as well tidy up and write my version of it minus the incredibly problematic elements.
I feel like I'm dumbing down with every fic I write. I should read actual published books - the good kind, mind you - to fix that but IJ ust can't be arsed to sit my ass down and just read. It's probably something I actually really need but I just... don't have time. I feel like I never have time, even when I do have time and am sitting around doing fucking nothing.
I have such feels for all of my ships, by which I mean Sam/Tron, Jim/Bones, Spock/Uhura, Ten&Donna, and Sherlock&Joan. I just declared war on all my remaining attachments to Supernatural & Fandom; after I fucking finish editing this fucking old ass Dean/Cas fic I am cutting ties with the lot. I am unfollowing the actors and fandom-related twitter accounts and removing anyone who posts mainly Supernatural shit from my dash. I know I'm being unfair but after the racist bullshit I dealt with from people who were incredibly blatant SPN fans I just don't want to deal with the lot. If you're a friend beyond SPN, you're cool, but if the extent of our interactions stop after SPN, you're out.
Hell, I don't even do shit with my journals so this doesn't apply here. It just applies to twitter and Tumblr.
P.S. I will fucking eat you if you try to start shit with me over my being "racist" towards white people and having a lot of fun fucking around with Bendybuckets Cumberpatches' name. Bendydicks Crumblybuckets. Bendyfart Cookiepatch. Benedryl Cabbagehead. I got nothing against the man, personally. I have a LOT against all the things that led to the whitest white man to ever white being cast as Khan.
I'M NOT LETTING THAT THE FUCK GO, JJ & CO. FUCK YOU LOT.
P.P.S. Oh my god I need so much Jim/Bones fic.