i'd like to be deco.
At the moment, I crave lots, lots & LOTS of cute/edgy things to jazz up my style with like deco or crazy prints. I am sorely regretting not buying that 3$ top at Dots that would've looked better on me than the blouse I brought for the funeral. I miss experimenting with makeup. I should do that again soon.
On Tuesday, I met up with dad & one of his coworkers from the IT department at MVP for lunch along with Jon & Jesse at KC Noodles. I will alwaysalwaysalways get the passionfruit bubble tea from there. It's effing delicious ♥ I drove Jesse to the Amtrak station so he could go home, so we sat on the bench for a while together til his train arrived.
"Goodbye for now, beautiful.. I love you."
Yes, he's said those words to me. It sent a tingle of excitement down my spine the first time he said it, & oh god was he frightened when he first blurted those words out to me. Love is something I'm still a little scared of, but Jesse is unendingly patient with me & encourages me to think things through logically. I'm completely comfortable with where we are right now in our relationship. Nothing's faded or become awkward over time; just really comfortable, exciting.. & happy. Content. I missed being content so much. That feeling that negates all the anxiety that plagues me at times is something I missed too. Jesse thrills, challenges, excites, comforts & balances me more than I believed possible. I don't care what image he shows everyone else, he can be so incredibly logical & grounded when it comes to serious matters that it's hard to believe this is the same boy who raptor-screeches at old people from the car window late at night. It really inspires me to use my head and really think instead of not giving myself a chance to be smart. He knows I'm intelligent, even if I don't act it.
Okay I'm done being all mushy, herpderp. xD
Yesterday, we made it to DC in one piece. Left at 6:30am, arrived in DC at 4pm. Nine hours in a car, though.. argh. I only slept 2 out of those 9 hours. The other time I spent listening to music & reading a crime novel (which is actually pretty good so far). Jon & I are up on the 7th floor with our own room. It's nice to be more independent instead of having dad breathing down our necks all the time =\
I should try to sleep.. in 5 1/2 hours I'll be waking up to get ready for Grandpa Pic's funeral. It's an entire military service in Arlington Cemetery, so it's a pretty big deal. Plus, yay family.
On Tuesday, I met up with dad & one of his coworkers from the IT department at MVP for lunch along with Jon & Jesse at KC Noodles. I will alwaysalwaysalways get the passionfruit bubble tea from there. It's effing delicious ♥ I drove Jesse to the Amtrak station so he could go home, so we sat on the bench for a while together til his train arrived.
"Goodbye for now, beautiful.. I love you."
Yes, he's said those words to me. It sent a tingle of excitement down my spine the first time he said it, & oh god was he frightened when he first blurted those words out to me. Love is something I'm still a little scared of, but Jesse is unendingly patient with me & encourages me to think things through logically. I'm completely comfortable with where we are right now in our relationship. Nothing's faded or become awkward over time; just really comfortable, exciting.. & happy. Content. I missed being content so much. That feeling that negates all the anxiety that plagues me at times is something I missed too. Jesse thrills, challenges, excites, comforts & balances me more than I believed possible. I don't care what image he shows everyone else, he can be so incredibly logical & grounded when it comes to serious matters that it's hard to believe this is the same boy who raptor-screeches at old people from the car window late at night. It really inspires me to use my head and really think instead of not giving myself a chance to be smart. He knows I'm intelligent, even if I don't act it.
Okay I'm done being all mushy, herpderp. xD
Yesterday, we made it to DC in one piece. Left at 6:30am, arrived in DC at 4pm. Nine hours in a car, though.. argh. I only slept 2 out of those 9 hours. The other time I spent listening to music & reading a crime novel (which is actually pretty good so far). Jon & I are up on the 7th floor with our own room. It's nice to be more independent instead of having dad breathing down our necks all the time =\
I should try to sleep.. in 5 1/2 hours I'll be waking up to get ready for Grandpa Pic's funeral. It's an entire military service in Arlington Cemetery, so it's a pretty big deal. Plus, yay family.