Done
I don't mean to sound like I normally do.
You know. My life is horrible and I am all alone here. that sort of normal.
Because my life is far from horrible. I know this.
But I am done. I am done, done, done with the way my life is going right now. Finito. I am so sick of sitting around waiting for something to change.
So... consequently, I am changing a few things in my life. First of all, it is NOT ok to eat everytime I'm bored... and not okay to do absolutely nothing that even remotely resembles exercise. That needs to change. And I know I've said this before... but, I'm very serious this time. I don't desperately want to be skinny so I can snag a guy. I want to be healthy so I can feel good.
Secondly. I will go to school next semester. All the time. I will NOT skip school for work... I don't care if I end up working for the frickin President (not that I ever would... ) but you know what I mean. No job, and especially not Speedway, is worth slipping grades. Attendance is a part of my final grade, and no matter how mind-numbingly easy all of my classes are, I can still do badly in them if I never attend. So no more of that.
Third. I think I really need to go away for a while. I just want to escape, so I think I am going to ask my parents if I can go live with a grandparent, or an aunt, or a friend of the family for the summer or something. I just need a change. A big one.
Last. I am done with things that have concerned me for too long. It's seriously time for me to move on. Time to forget things I held so dear in high school. 5 years is a ridiculously long time to hold onto things when they are taking you nowhere and are, in fact, completely hopeless. There comes a time in life, when you have to look at yourself in the mirror and admit that you tried your best, and it's not working. There's a time to hold onto something, and a time to throw in the towel.
I'm movin on, at last I can see
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantee that I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And i have made up my mind that those days are gone.
I've lived in this place, and i know all the faces
Each one is different, but they're always the same.
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong.
I still love you all, but I think I'm starting to learn to love you in different ways. I hope this can help me appreciate each and every one of you a lot more than I ever have.
Amanda
You know. My life is horrible and I am all alone here. that sort of normal.
Because my life is far from horrible. I know this.
But I am done. I am done, done, done with the way my life is going right now. Finito. I am so sick of sitting around waiting for something to change.
So... consequently, I am changing a few things in my life. First of all, it is NOT ok to eat everytime I'm bored... and not okay to do absolutely nothing that even remotely resembles exercise. That needs to change. And I know I've said this before... but, I'm very serious this time. I don't desperately want to be skinny so I can snag a guy. I want to be healthy so I can feel good.
Secondly. I will go to school next semester. All the time. I will NOT skip school for work... I don't care if I end up working for the frickin President (not that I ever would... ) but you know what I mean. No job, and especially not Speedway, is worth slipping grades. Attendance is a part of my final grade, and no matter how mind-numbingly easy all of my classes are, I can still do badly in them if I never attend. So no more of that.
Third. I think I really need to go away for a while. I just want to escape, so I think I am going to ask my parents if I can go live with a grandparent, or an aunt, or a friend of the family for the summer or something. I just need a change. A big one.
Last. I am done with things that have concerned me for too long. It's seriously time for me to move on. Time to forget things I held so dear in high school. 5 years is a ridiculously long time to hold onto things when they are taking you nowhere and are, in fact, completely hopeless. There comes a time in life, when you have to look at yourself in the mirror and admit that you tried your best, and it's not working. There's a time to hold onto something, and a time to throw in the towel.
I'm movin on, at last I can see
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantee that I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And i have made up my mind that those days are gone.
I've lived in this place, and i know all the faces
Each one is different, but they're always the same.
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong.
I still love you all, but I think I'm starting to learn to love you in different ways. I hope this can help me appreciate each and every one of you a lot more than I ever have.
Amanda