Lol I feel better?
Is that even possible? Ryan is upset and emo and after talking to someone feels much better? @_@ usually its just escalating into a fight until its ridiculous. but its true it happened.
I was really upset like Usual i think it happens every time i meet a girl i might crush on a bit. I get excited and more excited until on like the 3rd or 4th day i bust and start doubting myself and tearing myself apart until i totally give up on the girl. I got super emo and just basically threw a whiny fit v_v.
But later i felt bad after Sean had spoken with me. And i started talk ing with John and he was trying to help but right then the girl Nami came to town where i was idling and i apologised to her and then invited her to teh spot in the new town i found ^_^ and we went there walked around the town together and then sat down and talked for about 2 hours about it. And i really got to hear more about her and she truly is just like me. SHe told me exactly what i would have told someone else had they been in my shoes. For some reason ive never been one to take my own advice and its come off as very irritating for others. But for some reason she was able to calm me down and when i listened to her it really hit home. like my own medecine worked when i took it XD. and we spoke for a long time and i really became at peace and got more optimistic on how to better myself.
it seems my quest to better myself continues ^_^ as does my interest in this Nami girl. she passed the most dificult test a friend of mine must put up with O.o Ryan PMS and she passed which i didnt think neone could lol. So now im just really happy to have her around and i feel really nice n comfortable with her.
perhaps what could have been a disastrous evening turned out rather good?
I was really upset like Usual i think it happens every time i meet a girl i might crush on a bit. I get excited and more excited until on like the 3rd or 4th day i bust and start doubting myself and tearing myself apart until i totally give up on the girl. I got super emo and just basically threw a whiny fit v_v.
But later i felt bad after Sean had spoken with me. And i started talk ing with John and he was trying to help but right then the girl Nami came to town where i was idling and i apologised to her and then invited her to teh spot in the new town i found ^_^ and we went there walked around the town together and then sat down and talked for about 2 hours about it. And i really got to hear more about her and she truly is just like me. SHe told me exactly what i would have told someone else had they been in my shoes. For some reason ive never been one to take my own advice and its come off as very irritating for others. But for some reason she was able to calm me down and when i listened to her it really hit home. like my own medecine worked when i took it XD. and we spoke for a long time and i really became at peace and got more optimistic on how to better myself.
it seems my quest to better myself continues ^_^ as does my interest in this Nami girl. she passed the most dificult test a friend of mine must put up with O.o Ryan PMS and she passed which i didnt think neone could lol. So now im just really happy to have her around and i feel really nice n comfortable with her.
perhaps what could have been a disastrous evening turned out rather good?