some thoughts
My car has finally passed inspection! So on Tuesday morning I did a slightly impulsive and irresponsible thing, told my parents I was sleeping over Audrey's and drove to State College to hang out with smelly boy. I am very glad I did it. I got a little anxious on the ride up (especially because it was taking much longer than I anticipated and I had a time limit that I did not meet :/ ) but it was all worth it as soon as I crested a hill on 220 and saw Beaver Stadium in the distance. I got the biggest smile on my face, I was so excited to be back. Not even just because I was gonna see my bffl, but because I was hit with such an overwhelming rush of affection for my school. I love it there so much - the pawprints on the back of every car, a Penn State shirt everywhere you look, hearing Old Main play Hail to the Lion, knowing I could yell "WE ARE!" and get the right response. I love being there, I love the atmosphere, I love the spirit. It's so different from here - I love it here too, but I'm sick of sitting around doing nothing because everyone else is content to do so.
Which is the main reason, I think, why I finally decided just to high tail it out there; I needed to be there, away from that which makes me crazy about being home, away from the frustration and lonliness and all-out lameness of Ocean Township. I saw tar-tar, saw Jared, got to hang out in a TV station in a new place, ate yummy homemade tacos and met cool people and had good conversation. Even though I was tired, I loved it, it was just so good to do that again. We saw Wall-E, which was amazing. I loved it and I'm so glad I'm finally got to see it (even if I did have to drive 260+ miles to have someone to do it with <3).
Fell asleep content instead of frustrated. Laughed more than I have in a little while, just had fun and was happy. :)
The bad part was calling out of work (which I had Wednesday morning, I thought it was at 12 but turns out it was 10), which I felt bad doing, especially because I pretended I was sick; Jamie is the sweetest, everyone there is so nice and chill that I genuinely feel bad lying, but I'd rather lie to them than have them think I'm completely irresponsible.
But anyway, I was so heartbroken to have to leave. The leap of joy I felt upon arriving was mirrorred equally by sadness when I had to leave, even though I know that this time next week I'm gonna be back for Arts Fest, even longer and more fun and more legitimate. It was still hard.
And that is how I know I made the right decision in going to Penn State. :)
Which is the main reason, I think, why I finally decided just to high tail it out there; I needed to be there, away from that which makes me crazy about being home, away from the frustration and lonliness and all-out lameness of Ocean Township. I saw tar-tar, saw Jared, got to hang out in a TV station in a new place, ate yummy homemade tacos and met cool people and had good conversation. Even though I was tired, I loved it, it was just so good to do that again. We saw Wall-E, which was amazing. I loved it and I'm so glad I'm finally got to see it (even if I did have to drive 260+ miles to have someone to do it with <3).
Fell asleep content instead of frustrated. Laughed more than I have in a little while, just had fun and was happy. :)
The bad part was calling out of work (which I had Wednesday morning, I thought it was at 12 but turns out it was 10), which I felt bad doing, especially because I pretended I was sick; Jamie is the sweetest, everyone there is so nice and chill that I genuinely feel bad lying, but I'd rather lie to them than have them think I'm completely irresponsible.
But anyway, I was so heartbroken to have to leave. The leap of joy I felt upon arriving was mirrorred equally by sadness when I had to leave, even though I know that this time next week I'm gonna be back for Arts Fest, even longer and more fun and more legitimate. It was still hard.
And that is how I know I made the right decision in going to Penn State. :)