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A lot happened tonight, in a short period of time. Chelsea trusted me and Andria with information on a guy she really likes. Andria couldn't really relate, and she had to go anyway, so that left me and Chelsea. I, on the other hand, having just experienced rejection (today makes twice), talked extensively with her about this.
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
okay, well, I feel obligated to tell you who I like, since you shared and trusted me with this
chelsea says:
you dont have to grace
chelsea says:
you really don't
chelsea says:
if you don't feel comfortable
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
well you already guessed correctly. >_<
chelsea says:
well i had guessed that you would like him a few months into the year
chelsea says:
because of his hardcore asian-ness
chelsea says:
he's pretty sweet too you know
chelsea says:
he won't hold it against you
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
yeah, he's not
chelsea says:
and he's so secretive
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
but that doesn't make me feel any better
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
the awkwardness is all in my head
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
and I hate feeling rejected
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
I get the idea that I'm not good enough, thanks to my self-esteem
chelsea says:
we love you
chelsea says:
fuck your self esteem
chelsea says:
we think you are hardcore.
chelsea says:
:]
chelsea says:
all of us
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
haha thanks
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
<3
chelsea says:
in our little retarded people clique
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
hahaha
chelsea says:
and we are glad that you came to our school
chelsea says:
because you fit in perfectly
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
aw, thank you
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
seriously that makes me feel a lot better
chelsea says:
no problem
chelsea says:
anytime you need a self esteem boost.
It helps that I did get to talk with Daniel briefly tonight. He said a lot of very sweet things, even if they weren't said in the context I'd have liked them to be. It did make me feel better... so I guess, it's the first step.
The very painful first step. :/
VerusMaya II
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
okay, well, I feel obligated to tell you who I like, since you shared and trusted me with this
chelsea says:
you dont have to grace
chelsea says:
you really don't
chelsea says:
if you don't feel comfortable
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
well you already guessed correctly. >_<
chelsea says:
well i had guessed that you would like him a few months into the year
chelsea says:
because of his hardcore asian-ness
chelsea says:
he's pretty sweet too you know
chelsea says:
he won't hold it against you
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
yeah, he's not
chelsea says:
and he's so secretive
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
but that doesn't make me feel any better
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
the awkwardness is all in my head
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
and I hate feeling rejected
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
I get the idea that I'm not good enough, thanks to my self-esteem
chelsea says:
we love you
chelsea says:
fuck your self esteem
chelsea says:
we think you are hardcore.
chelsea says:
:]
chelsea says:
all of us
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
haha thanks
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
<3
chelsea says:
in our little retarded people clique
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
hahaha
chelsea says:
and we are glad that you came to our school
chelsea says:
because you fit in perfectly
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
aw, thank you
[ VerusMaya² ] says:
seriously that makes me feel a lot better
chelsea says:
no problem
chelsea says:
anytime you need a self esteem boost.
It helps that I did get to talk with Daniel briefly tonight. He said a lot of very sweet things, even if they weren't said in the context I'd have liked them to be. It did make me feel better... so I guess, it's the first step.
The very painful first step. :/
VerusMaya II