Because it's been a while.
It's been a while since I updated. People wonder why....
It's because I don't have much to say.
That's probably not true. I have a lot to say, it's just that no one wants to hear me complain.
However, this is my journal.
I have come to the conclusion that I don't have friends. Everyone that is close to me seems to be gone. I can't talk to people anymore. Whenever I want to talk to someone, I can't. I have so much to say and I just want someone there that will listen and understand. I find myself calling people that I want to talk to, and when they answer I change my mind, clam up and claim that I called them just to see what was up.
I'm not really close to anyone and I don't like where I'm headed in life. I know how to fix it, but it's so hard. I hate hurting people. I've done it far too many times and it always kills me, Even if I don't show it.
I just want a friend who I can talk to. I just want them to listen and tell me it's going to be okay.
It's because I don't have much to say.
That's probably not true. I have a lot to say, it's just that no one wants to hear me complain.
However, this is my journal.
I have come to the conclusion that I don't have friends. Everyone that is close to me seems to be gone. I can't talk to people anymore. Whenever I want to talk to someone, I can't. I have so much to say and I just want someone there that will listen and understand. I find myself calling people that I want to talk to, and when they answer I change my mind, clam up and claim that I called them just to see what was up.
I'm not really close to anyone and I don't like where I'm headed in life. I know how to fix it, but it's so hard. I hate hurting people. I've done it far too many times and it always kills me, Even if I don't show it.
I just want a friend who I can talk to. I just want them to listen and tell me it's going to be okay.