just thoughts...
Random thoughts time once again... yet no thoughts on fics unfortunately, even though tried to get some work done on my thunderbirds crossover.
How can couples have happy times together in this age? Or someone that has had such a sheltered life that all they got is their family and work, or life on the pc amongst fans of shows or books someone had once read... I know that I do that but not as much, i still try and live the life - not much at the moment, that's true - but I do try and keep away from the computer, I do try and find things that doesn't demand my full attention most of the time when im not at work...
How can you work on the computer all day only to come home straight onto another? I couldn't do that! I couldn't go from working on the pc all day, have a hours travel in a crampt bus/train/whatever to get onto another computer.. even though I do have friends online but they would understand if I became too tired from work to be online as soon as I get in the door.
How can you talk about this to another person, to another face? to get the courage to face the heartful truth about the scariest thing in the world, someone else's feelings...
someone else talking about how they truly feeling about someone ...
its just impossible...
no not impossible just pure human instinct, pushing someone away by fear but also by love but the fear is always the strongest, always there looming in the shadow of love...
I don't know what to do, or how to handle this...
I just want to scream or cry but I don't know why or for how long or just sleep until things get better...
But I know they won't ... or would they? ...
I just don't know
How can couples have happy times together in this age? Or someone that has had such a sheltered life that all they got is their family and work, or life on the pc amongst fans of shows or books someone had once read... I know that I do that but not as much, i still try and live the life - not much at the moment, that's true - but I do try and keep away from the computer, I do try and find things that doesn't demand my full attention most of the time when im not at work...
How can you work on the computer all day only to come home straight onto another? I couldn't do that! I couldn't go from working on the pc all day, have a hours travel in a crampt bus/train/whatever to get onto another computer.. even though I do have friends online but they would understand if I became too tired from work to be online as soon as I get in the door.
How can you talk about this to another person, to another face? to get the courage to face the heartful truth about the scariest thing in the world, someone else's feelings...
someone else talking about how they truly feeling about someone ...
its just impossible...
no not impossible just pure human instinct, pushing someone away by fear but also by love but the fear is always the strongest, always there looming in the shadow of love...
I don't know what to do, or how to handle this...
I just want to scream or cry but I don't know why or for how long or just sleep until things get better...
But I know they won't ... or would they? ...
I just don't know