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Today was weird... I dunno...
Me and Nani were driving around Ocala all morning... I forget why. O_o; Something about some cable for her computer. Who knows?
Then I took her home at like, 4 pm... then I got depressed so I told her I was gonna go for a drive... well I just started driving... and I thought it was strange that the cd was playing the same songs over again. Then I realized I had been driving for a long ass time.
I ended up calling Nani, cause we were supposed to go to the movies at 7, and it was like 6:30, and I told her I was going to go to Georgia (for the hell of it)... but she's like "No! Come back!" and was all yelling at me... psh, so I drove all the way back... bah. Well, I told them that I was going to change, and then drive us to the movies (we decided to go to the later one), but apparently they didn't hear me, cause when I came back, they were gone!! So I called Nani's cellphone, and Shanelle told me that they thought I left again, so they were gonna drop Christina off home, and that they were going to Wal-mart instead... cause Nani didn't wanna see the movie either now. Sooooo, I decide to go to wal-mart to meet up with them at 9:30.
I saw Donnie when I was walking in. It was funny, cause I was staring at him... and he was like O_o "what?" and thats how I knew it was him. lol. He was only 10 feet in front of me, but I couldn't tell it was him. *shrugs*
Then I went inside, it was like 9:00pm, so I decided to walk around. Man, there are a lot of pervy old guys in wal-mart. Well, I'm walking and walking, and it feels like its been forever when...
Guy: Hey ma, whats up?
Me: O.o..... *goes to walk away*
Guy: You gonna diss me like that?
Me: ....what time is it?
Friend of Guy: Ten till Ten.
Me: Fuck!
Guy: Whats wrong?
Me: Eh, nothing... just my friends were supposed to meet me here awhile ago... *tries to walk away again*
Guy: Oh really ma? Well, thats just wrong. Standing you up like that.
Me: ... =| *nods slowly* ....
Guy: Why dont you hang with us instead?
Me: Er...
Guy: Yeah ma. We got this party.
Me: Well then why are you here?
Friend of Guy: Looking for more people to come.
So... somehow they convince me to follow them out. ><><>< The whole time I'm in the car, I was like "Omg, this is how girls get raped...." but then it was like "C'mon! Take a chance for once!" Well, when we reached the house, there were all these cars in front of it, and it definitely looked like a party, but when they pulled in, I sped off. lmao, they got out the car, and was like, staring as I sped away. lmao, I am such a chicken shit, I swear.
Ahhh, oh well... afterwards, I tried to call Nani, but I couldn't remember her cellphone number, so then I went by Justin's house to see what he was up to, but he wasn't there. =( When I came back to Marion Oaks, they had just gotten back (they got to wal-mart at 10!). Then I took Nani home.
Today was my day away from Jay. Hmm, I already tried calling him twice. lol, I'm a dumbass. I went by his house twice too!! I need to chill with that. He's out doing his thing, and I need to start doing mine.
Its just so hard to go out and have fun when I dont know if he's okay..... if he would just answer his cellphone and be like "Yeah, I'm hanging with so and so... drinking... blah blah" then it would be like "Oh! okay!" and I can go have fun... but when I dont know what he's doing, my mind fucks with me. Like, he's with HER right now... kissing HER... touching HER... makes me sick. X_x It also makes me think of that puddle of mudd song.....
Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm gonna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a pool of misery
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost
So here I am
I don't wanna be by myself
And I think you’re fucking someone else
now im gonna have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of bones
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost
Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way
Now I sit here by myself
Think about somebody else
How could you let them take you away from me
There’s somebody else
There’s somebody else!
~*~
Ha, the INSANITY!
Me and Nani were driving around Ocala all morning... I forget why. O_o; Something about some cable for her computer. Who knows?
Then I took her home at like, 4 pm... then I got depressed so I told her I was gonna go for a drive... well I just started driving... and I thought it was strange that the cd was playing the same songs over again. Then I realized I had been driving for a long ass time.
I ended up calling Nani, cause we were supposed to go to the movies at 7, and it was like 6:30, and I told her I was going to go to Georgia (for the hell of it)... but she's like "No! Come back!" and was all yelling at me... psh, so I drove all the way back... bah. Well, I told them that I was going to change, and then drive us to the movies (we decided to go to the later one), but apparently they didn't hear me, cause when I came back, they were gone!! So I called Nani's cellphone, and Shanelle told me that they thought I left again, so they were gonna drop Christina off home, and that they were going to Wal-mart instead... cause Nani didn't wanna see the movie either now. Sooooo, I decide to go to wal-mart to meet up with them at 9:30.
I saw Donnie when I was walking in. It was funny, cause I was staring at him... and he was like O_o "what?" and thats how I knew it was him. lol. He was only 10 feet in front of me, but I couldn't tell it was him. *shrugs*
Then I went inside, it was like 9:00pm, so I decided to walk around. Man, there are a lot of pervy old guys in wal-mart. Well, I'm walking and walking, and it feels like its been forever when...
Guy: Hey ma, whats up?
Me: O.o..... *goes to walk away*
Guy: You gonna diss me like that?
Me: ....what time is it?
Friend of Guy: Ten till Ten.
Me: Fuck!
Guy: Whats wrong?
Me: Eh, nothing... just my friends were supposed to meet me here awhile ago... *tries to walk away again*
Guy: Oh really ma? Well, thats just wrong. Standing you up like that.
Me: ... =| *nods slowly* ....
Guy: Why dont you hang with us instead?
Me: Er...
Guy: Yeah ma. We got this party.
Me: Well then why are you here?
Friend of Guy: Looking for more people to come.
So... somehow they convince me to follow them out. ><><>< The whole time I'm in the car, I was like "Omg, this is how girls get raped...." but then it was like "C'mon! Take a chance for once!" Well, when we reached the house, there were all these cars in front of it, and it definitely looked like a party, but when they pulled in, I sped off. lmao, they got out the car, and was like, staring as I sped away. lmao, I am such a chicken shit, I swear.
Ahhh, oh well... afterwards, I tried to call Nani, but I couldn't remember her cellphone number, so then I went by Justin's house to see what he was up to, but he wasn't there. =( When I came back to Marion Oaks, they had just gotten back (they got to wal-mart at 10!). Then I took Nani home.
Today was my day away from Jay. Hmm, I already tried calling him twice. lol, I'm a dumbass. I went by his house twice too!! I need to chill with that. He's out doing his thing, and I need to start doing mine.
Its just so hard to go out and have fun when I dont know if he's okay..... if he would just answer his cellphone and be like "Yeah, I'm hanging with so and so... drinking... blah blah" then it would be like "Oh! okay!" and I can go have fun... but when I dont know what he's doing, my mind fucks with me. Like, he's with HER right now... kissing HER... touching HER... makes me sick. X_x It also makes me think of that puddle of mudd song.....
Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm gonna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a pool of misery
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost
So here I am
I don't wanna be by myself
And I think you’re fucking someone else
now im gonna have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of bones
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost
Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way
Now I sit here by myself
Think about somebody else
How could you let them take you away from me
There’s somebody else
There’s somebody else!
~*~
Ha, the INSANITY!