I Miss Them Already... 😭😭😭
“Soooooooo...
In therapy this week I realized something about myself and I'm only sharing so that people will know not to do this silly ass shit...
Due to growing up at times not feeling supported, I tend to downplay my accomplishments. I'm also very suspicious of praise/attention. To the point that when some one points out something I've done, at times it causes me to feel defensive. (This is heightened by the fact that it went unnoticed because I don't seek outside validation. I'm basically my own cheerleader)
I've gotten a tad better about it but yeah, don't do this shit. If someone is celebrating you, bask in that confetti. Those are your roses and not many get the chance to enjoy theirs in their lifetime.”
- I posted this to Facebook this morning (You can't change the past but I'm glad this didn't turn into a generational curse on my end. Just because I didn't feel supported doesn't mean do the same shit to my own kids. That's just selfish)
I'm taking a moment from Agents Of Chaos (Cuz Z and Jan are currently enjoyed island living and I need to figure out how I wanna get them back home so I've got plenty of time to miss BTS while my brain comes up with something) to write about BTS because for some reason, seeing the pictures of them leaving made this real. It's been real the entire time, yes I know. It's just, I dunno… Different. I starting feeling it after Yoongi left but with Namjoon and Taehyung then Jimin and Jungkook the very next day, it hit like a freight train. They're really gone now.
Sure, we have their shows/music/pics and whatever else but until 2025, that's it. I miss them so much that…
^Waking up to this made me happy. This is the song the pushed me to become ARMY. Spring Day is a beautiful track and I'm glad it's still on the charts all these years later.
That's it.
That's the entry.
Just wanted to talk about missing BTS
Later
PS: So that I'll have it documented...
In therapy this week I realized something about myself and I'm only sharing so that people will know not to do this silly ass shit...
Due to growing up at times not feeling supported, I tend to downplay my accomplishments. I'm also very suspicious of praise/attention. To the point that when some one points out something I've done, at times it causes me to feel defensive. (This is heightened by the fact that it went unnoticed because I don't seek outside validation. I'm basically my own cheerleader)
I've gotten a tad better about it but yeah, don't do this shit. If someone is celebrating you, bask in that confetti. Those are your roses and not many get the chance to enjoy theirs in their lifetime.”
- I posted this to Facebook this morning (You can't change the past but I'm glad this didn't turn into a generational curse on my end. Just because I didn't feel supported doesn't mean do the same shit to my own kids. That's just selfish)
I'm taking a moment from Agents Of Chaos (Cuz Z and Jan are currently enjoyed island living and I need to figure out how I wanna get them back home so I've got plenty of time to miss BTS while my brain comes up with something) to write about BTS because for some reason, seeing the pictures of them leaving made this real. It's been real the entire time, yes I know. It's just, I dunno… Different. I starting feeling it after Yoongi left but with Namjoon and Taehyung then Jimin and Jungkook the very next day, it hit like a freight train. They're really gone now.
Sure, we have their shows/music/pics and whatever else but until 2025, that's it. I miss them so much that…
^Waking up to this made me happy. This is the song the pushed me to become ARMY. Spring Day is a beautiful track and I'm glad it's still on the charts all these years later.
That's it.
That's the entry.
Just wanted to talk about missing BTS
Later
PS: So that I'll have it documented...