Exhaling...
"One day, one minute, one second at a time. You're amazing, try not to forget that! If people start raining on your parade, start pissing on theirs! 🌊😅"
- Andy (I don't deserve him)
I haven't done an entry that doesn't start with Drag Race or something dramatic (Which reminds me, within the last two days, I've gained some amount of closure with David. It's not the closure I wanted but I get the feeling that it's the closure I needed) in a while so today Imma allow Max to live his best life cuz I... You know what? I'm tired. I get up, I work, I come home, I sit… Believe it or not, that's tiring. It feels like a waste. I feel like I'm wasting this life again. I was on a roll then all that mess happened on my birthday and I feel like ever since it did, I froze up. I've been crippled ever since.
Half the time I feel like I don't know if I'm making the right choices. So yeah, Max, have at it… He was definitely waiting for me to fold, I assure you…
^You might tell yourself that I'm not the hottest thing this world has ever been graced with, but you would be wrong and that's okay 😂😂😂
^Creatively speaking, these aren't even top tier. What speaks to me is that these were done sitting on the floor in my bra and my new BTS coat. (I love it and wanted pics in it so this was a two birds, one stone type deal.) I used to wouldn't show my stomach close up. Further away, flaws are easier to hide cuz I am beast when it comes to finding good lighting. Truth is, tho' I workout as much as I do, I'm not at six pack level just yet and I look like an expensive tiger with all my stretch marks *laughs*. Despite that, I'm actually impressed that I haven't given up yet. Being on a weightloss journey is not an easy path to choose. You like the changes and the feelings that accompany that, but sometimes eating right becomes a chore (Bruh, Krispy Kreme has these new S'mores donuts... I should not know that 😂😂😂) and working out becomes a burden. I don't feel like this all the time, mind you. Just sometimes. More times that not, I enjoy the new routine cuz yeah, l lie around ALOT, but never before I workout. I always make sure I get them 2hrs in.
*sighs* Which reminds me, I'm thinking about getting a bike to get back and forth to work. Imma start looking at the different routes that would get me to the jobby job and if one of them is a close shot without a lot of problems, I might start doing that. It would definitely cut the cost down annnnnnnnnd it would go on the calorie count for the day.
Welp, more on that once the decision is made...
Later
- Andy (I don't deserve him)
I haven't done an entry that doesn't start with Drag Race or something dramatic (Which reminds me, within the last two days, I've gained some amount of closure with David. It's not the closure I wanted but I get the feeling that it's the closure I needed) in a while so today Imma allow Max to live his best life cuz I... You know what? I'm tired. I get up, I work, I come home, I sit… Believe it or not, that's tiring. It feels like a waste. I feel like I'm wasting this life again. I was on a roll then all that mess happened on my birthday and I feel like ever since it did, I froze up. I've been crippled ever since.
Half the time I feel like I don't know if I'm making the right choices. So yeah, Max, have at it… He was definitely waiting for me to fold, I assure you…
^You might tell yourself that I'm not the hottest thing this world has ever been graced with, but you would be wrong and that's okay 😂😂😂
^Creatively speaking, these aren't even top tier. What speaks to me is that these were done sitting on the floor in my bra and my new BTS coat. (I love it and wanted pics in it so this was a two birds, one stone type deal.) I used to wouldn't show my stomach close up. Further away, flaws are easier to hide cuz I am beast when it comes to finding good lighting. Truth is, tho' I workout as much as I do, I'm not at six pack level just yet and I look like an expensive tiger with all my stretch marks *laughs*. Despite that, I'm actually impressed that I haven't given up yet. Being on a weightloss journey is not an easy path to choose. You like the changes and the feelings that accompany that, but sometimes eating right becomes a chore (Bruh, Krispy Kreme has these new S'mores donuts... I should not know that 😂😂😂) and working out becomes a burden. I don't feel like this all the time, mind you. Just sometimes. More times that not, I enjoy the new routine cuz yeah, l lie around ALOT, but never before I workout. I always make sure I get them 2hrs in.
*sighs* Which reminds me, I'm thinking about getting a bike to get back and forth to work. Imma start looking at the different routes that would get me to the jobby job and if one of them is a close shot without a lot of problems, I might start doing that. It would definitely cut the cost down annnnnnnnnd it would go on the calorie count for the day.
Welp, more on that once the decision is made...
Later