The existential crises I've been facing lately are all about what I DO. Or what's been taken away. I've lost art (even if it's temporarily), I've lost dancing, I've lost working, driving ( Read more... )

My shoulder is in so much pain. So much. I knew eventually this would happen, using a cane for 10 years catches up to you. I have an MRI next month, and I want my VA doctor to help me make the argument that because it’s from the cane use that it IS related to my disability and SHOULD be considered when I try to get my percentage raised… because… I ( Read more... )

This is my last week of physical therapy. I have a check-up on Friday to sort of test my progress but I'll probably ask for a range of motion test sometime this week with the folks in the physical therapy section of things, since the doctor might not do that. I know a couple of weeks ago they said it was already improving. And the pain has lessened ( Read more... )

In a good deal of pain. It spiked really badly at Panoptikon last night. I still had a good time despite this. The drive home was brutal. Had to take two heavy-duty meds to sleep through the pain ( Read more... )

Another day sleeping in too late. But honestly after the DOOM-PAIN I brought on myself that slowed me down so much yesterday, I probably needed the sleep. I do feel a LOT better now. So I feel a little guilty and panicky for sleeping so much, but... if that's the price to pay for a healthier happier body then I guess I'm okay with it. Mostly.

I put on make-up. Dressed in half-nice clothes. Felt good. Wanted to burn off some energy so I went to see friends I haven't seen in a while ( Read more... )

PSA: Kids, sometimes you will say something to me. Something innocent, something that is not meant to hurt me. Please know that I KNOW you do not mean this. Know that I probably won't be angry that you said it. But sometimes your foot just ends up in your mouth. It doesn't mean we're suddenly not friends. It's just that, every so often, a topic is ( Read more... )

I did not waste my youth.

I was young, hot, able-bodied (or close enough to it) and I took every advantage. Sure in my teenage years I limited myself a bit much but then I joined the Army and really put myself at there. That had some admittedly bad last effects but in my early 20s I lived it up. I danced, I partied, I had sex, I explored life, I ( Read more... )

I can barely move I'm in so much pain. We're having people over tonight. Will's aware my pain levels and is insistent that I ask him for anything I need. So... it should be fine. If things get too bad I'll go hide in the bedroom. Will has already given me a drink and some dark chocolate. Yeeeah. Gonna marry that dude so hard... right in the face.

Yeah, probably need a new video card. Not very pleased about this ( Read more... )