Message for Jasmine - Teru
"You fell into eternal sleep on August 9.
It's sad, sad, sad...even if I act calm, every day is distressful.
Even if more than one week passed, I can't accept his death yet.
I remember that some years ago, when I attended the live of You's former band Jyakura, I felt attracted by him because of his original performance and remarkable showiness.
The first time we talked together he has been mysterious and gentle even if I was younger than him, and I was impressed by the strange world that his appearance evoked.
When Versailles was formed, I believed that it was "the band where the best members gathered".
I believe that in these two years and half we achieved miracles and came to this point because we were those five people.
You was always standing beside me at concerts.
You's enthusiasm at lives was strong, and it often happened that we made plans for our movements and performance at a concert.
The eye contact during concerts, smiling each others, making jokes...we felt together the live mood since we were the closest ones on stage.
When I had a problem he immediately looked after me and I felt reassured.
At the live we attended as 4 people on August 3, the stage felt unusually large.
That time I played guitar like crazy, but "a person who was meant to be there wasn't there".
Only the sadness of that thought is left from that concert.
You was surely a sort of senpai to me.
Also in my private life, he followed me as I'm still ignorant of the world.
He was a person who not only gave me advice about conversation and etiquette, but also took care of his kouhai without being haughty.
I think I learnt from him the mental attitude of a musician.
When I reached my limits, one word of You was enough to give me an amazing strength.
He often cheered me up saying "keep your self-esteem high because you got an appeal that I don't have!"
He took care of everyone no matter who he was, and without saying anything I'd feel a strange feeling as I was beyond the obstacle.
As a senpai, it rarely happened that he showed me weakness or pain.
He's always supported me with austerity and tenderness.
I'm not sure if I've been a kouhai in his hands, but I wanted him to teach me much more...
These days I deeply thought about that thing we use to call "death"
I thought and thought...but of course I still can't understand.
Maybe there was a different future.
But this way I will never know.
I want to keep on living with the days I spent with You carved in my heart.
My treasures are the amazing things the five of us achieved.
When we met for the last time before the long break, before leaving I thanked him by saying "thank you for taking care of me so much".
As always You answered with a smile.
I'd have never imagined that it would be the last thing I told him.
At least I could directly send him my gratitude one last time.
I don't know if I can call it a farewell.
This is not a farewell: the feeling I would like to embrace from now on is "gratitude".
You,
thanks you very much
Versailles TERU"
It's sad, sad, sad...even if I act calm, every day is distressful.
Even if more than one week passed, I can't accept his death yet.
I remember that some years ago, when I attended the live of You's former band Jyakura, I felt attracted by him because of his original performance and remarkable showiness.
The first time we talked together he has been mysterious and gentle even if I was younger than him, and I was impressed by the strange world that his appearance evoked.
When Versailles was formed, I believed that it was "the band where the best members gathered".
I believe that in these two years and half we achieved miracles and came to this point because we were those five people.
You was always standing beside me at concerts.
You's enthusiasm at lives was strong, and it often happened that we made plans for our movements and performance at a concert.
The eye contact during concerts, smiling each others, making jokes...we felt together the live mood since we were the closest ones on stage.
When I had a problem he immediately looked after me and I felt reassured.
At the live we attended as 4 people on August 3, the stage felt unusually large.
That time I played guitar like crazy, but "a person who was meant to be there wasn't there".
Only the sadness of that thought is left from that concert.
You was surely a sort of senpai to me.
Also in my private life, he followed me as I'm still ignorant of the world.
He was a person who not only gave me advice about conversation and etiquette, but also took care of his kouhai without being haughty.
I think I learnt from him the mental attitude of a musician.
When I reached my limits, one word of You was enough to give me an amazing strength.
He often cheered me up saying "keep your self-esteem high because you got an appeal that I don't have!"
He took care of everyone no matter who he was, and without saying anything I'd feel a strange feeling as I was beyond the obstacle.
As a senpai, it rarely happened that he showed me weakness or pain.
He's always supported me with austerity and tenderness.
I'm not sure if I've been a kouhai in his hands, but I wanted him to teach me much more...
These days I deeply thought about that thing we use to call "death"
I thought and thought...but of course I still can't understand.
Maybe there was a different future.
But this way I will never know.
I want to keep on living with the days I spent with You carved in my heart.
My treasures are the amazing things the five of us achieved.
When we met for the last time before the long break, before leaving I thanked him by saying "thank you for taking care of me so much".
As always You answered with a smile.
I'd have never imagined that it would be the last thing I told him.
At least I could directly send him my gratitude one last time.
I don't know if I can call it a farewell.
This is not a farewell: the feeling I would like to embrace from now on is "gratitude".
You,
thanks you very much
Versailles TERU"