Aug 30, 2009 09:55
"I still can’t tell if it’s reality or a dream.
Wasn’t there anything more that we could have done for You?
I keep on asking myself those questions without being able to refrain blaming myself.
If I had to remember one thing, at first it’d be his smile.
The beauty of his personnality was far greater compared to what I can remember.
When You was telling puns silence would follow for a short while but after a few seconds we’d all giggle.
I cherished a lot this kind of warm atmosphere that You was able to create.
Everytime I’d come to play in Nagoya with my previous band You would show up so before aknowledging it we ended up together. During the time when Versailles was being created we were craving for asking him to join the band because of his gentle personality. We were eager to speak about the band along with You. If we could be with You then it’d surely be more fun, wouldn’t it? As there wasn’t any reason to stop those feelings we quickly invited You. From this moment on, the three of us started talking daily about our dream.
Even if Versailles was created when HIZAKI and I took the decision to start a band together, if we turn back to the origins, the predestined cause that made us meet was directly You. Even if You was absolutly not the kind of person to take the leadership, we were not the only ones who fell attracted by his personality as a numerous group of person did too. In this quiet atmosphere that You created and was enfolded by there was a strange space where we’d all feel in harmony, no matter of our own personnalities. When I lost the band that I used to work with during such a long time I wasn’t even able to project myself into the future but You teached me how to be happy again. He teached me how to smile again. That’s why he was kind of a savior for me.
Moreover, You, as a member of the band had the important role of binding my personnal tastes for ballads with the ones of the others for metal tunes while being a great counsellor too.
When the process of writing lyrics would reach a dead end I would first go and speak about it with You. I would sing the tune to him or on the contrary he’d do it for me and that’s how we managed several times to take our decisions together and finally say “ let’s do it that way!”.
“PRINCE” lyrics are a good example of it. I’d like to express my gratitude...
Even if these are words that You was always telling, they're about a feeling that I would now like to send him.
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You,
Thanks for choosing us.
Moreover what I loved overall was the person you were.
Even if my words of gratitude are too numerous, those are the only one I wanna express at the moment.
Everybody loved you
Do you remember the thing we talked about last month?
You can rest and sleep in peace because I’ll grant our promise for sure.
You...good night...
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In the past I had the occasion to think about the meaning of the word “separation” .
The answer I gave to myself was "something that let only good memories reappear".
However during the time spent along with You there aren’t only good memories.
That’s why it’s not a “separation” .
Yet, I’m feeling so sad and desperate at the moment that I cannot refrain myself from crying and screaming just like a child everyday.
Please let me time to turn this sadness into power.
Even if I’m waiting for the day when I’ll be able to stand again in front of you all, please let me consider the promise I made to You as the most important thing to achieve for now.
KAMIJO"