wasting my time in the waiting line
so. friday night was fun with jasmine and dan, except
when the gay guys went home and then when we had to leave and miss
seeing it, that part was not fun, but the rest was funny. jasmine and
iiiii kept seeing all these people we knew but when we got closer it
really wasn't them and it happened like 10,00000 times but it was
funny. um thenn yesterday i got out of work early which was awesome and
there ofcourse was lots of snow and dan came here and he ended up
finally sleeping over cause of the snow. i thought it would be a lot
more fun but he was tired so maybe it will be another time, then this
morning i was not in the best of moods but i don't see that changing
soon heh. i think he has an idea of
what is annoying me and just taking the fun out of everything, but i
know he doesn't get it..all of it. i don't know how long i can do it
because when things are like this it makes me remember before and think
that it could be that much better so what the hell am i doing here ya
know? like maybe i could find the fun or just simple desire that has
run away elsewhere. i'd still be here for the sake of friends but what
difference would it make from this to friends if that's what it feels
like half the time. idk i gotta think it over. anyways i wanna go play
in the snow but i remembered i have that damn civics project i gotta go
finish and that will take me just about a year so we'll see, today may
be boring but i'm just happy to have alone time. being alone is always
better than being with someone and still feeling alone, so today is
alex time :-) so i'll go get started on that heh.