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Allo Allo Allo,
I'm feeling depressed and scared. I messed up big time at B. I can point fingers at others and make dozens of excuses, but ultimately it's my fault. It's my responsibility to make sure all my training is all set and all the paper work gets through.
I don't want to take responsibility for this. I want to blame someone else. I don't want to get fired. I'm scared. What else can I do? It's no one else fault but my own. I knew it would come and bite me in the ass. I should have been more clear and stood up for myself.
How long will I keep on living like this? Making one careless mistake after another? When will I get my act together and how? I've such a narrow focus that I can't see the train coming until it already hits me.
My holiday hasn't been as restful as it could be because of this being constant on my mind. None of the leads or managers know about this. I'm not sure who else knows of my mistake. D the big mouth probably told everyone. I've no clue what to do.
I want to quite and run away. I want to work somewhere else. I can't though. I just bought a condo and a new car. I need this job. I really hope I don't get fired. I don't think I will, but I'm scared to death.
I don't know what to do. I'm so useless and I really hate myself right now. How do I fix this? What do I say?
I want this to be all over. I hope it's not a big deal.
I'm sorry.
Kurai
I'm feeling depressed and scared. I messed up big time at B. I can point fingers at others and make dozens of excuses, but ultimately it's my fault. It's my responsibility to make sure all my training is all set and all the paper work gets through.
I don't want to take responsibility for this. I want to blame someone else. I don't want to get fired. I'm scared. What else can I do? It's no one else fault but my own. I knew it would come and bite me in the ass. I should have been more clear and stood up for myself.
How long will I keep on living like this? Making one careless mistake after another? When will I get my act together and how? I've such a narrow focus that I can't see the train coming until it already hits me.
My holiday hasn't been as restful as it could be because of this being constant on my mind. None of the leads or managers know about this. I'm not sure who else knows of my mistake. D the big mouth probably told everyone. I've no clue what to do.
I want to quite and run away. I want to work somewhere else. I can't though. I just bought a condo and a new car. I need this job. I really hope I don't get fired. I don't think I will, but I'm scared to death.
I don't know what to do. I'm so useless and I really hate myself right now. How do I fix this? What do I say?
I want this to be all over. I hope it's not a big deal.
I'm sorry.
Kurai