The Moment [4/?]
Title: The Moment [4/?]
Rating: R, NC-17
Genre: SMUT, Drama, Romance,
Summary: Henry just wants to figure out what true love is. With 3 men running after him, he never knows whats going to happen. But after a strong abuse from fellow band mates, Henry is afraid to admit the truth hiding in himself, and to the others.
Couples: HenWook, HenHae, YeHen, YeWook (ninja)
WARNING: This story brings up a lot of ONLY13, Forever15. PLEASE Do not comment on this subject. I also know Leeteuk isn't this much of an ass >> but he fit the part. I'm sorry ;-; No bashing please ;-;
Henry:
I was finally asleep after so long. My dreams brought me goose bumps. I felt his soft skin against mine. I felt his nails digging into my skin, the strings ripping apart my flesh, his tongue licking up the blood. I'd shake at the thought, but at the same time, I wanted more of him. Not the pain, just the pleasure. I woke up suddenly at a small touch against my back, bringing me from my dreams. I screamed in fright, and in pain. The minute my eyes opened, and I realized I was awake I was in complete pain.
"Leave me alone!" I yelled, trying my best not to move my back knowing the great deal of pain that would shoot through me. I held it in as I felt the hand slide off my waist.
"Henry." I stopped shaking when I heard the voice. "Calm down, it's me." Donghae was there. He saved me. I cried as I turned over, on my numb back and smiled looking at Donghae.
"Hae?" My voice fell and tears flowed out. I wanted him to hold me.
Donghae:
I felt bad as he came towards me. The blankets fell off his small body, and his shirt was tightly placed over what it appeared to be sheets. I bit my lip trying not to cry. I had to be strong for him. I put my arms around him, as he buried his head into my shoulders. I softly laid my hands on his head, and he shook. It seemed like no matter what I did to him, he shook. I patted his head.
"Henry." I tired to say something, but nothing worked. Anything I said made him cry even more. I held him, starting to slowly rock back and forth. His tears fell out more. I continued to rock him. I felt so bad; I couldn't do anything to cheer him up. He was so fragile, I was afraid any movement my body made would make him flinch. I sat there for awhile rocking back and forth until it hit me.
Yesung was right the entire time. He told me that Leeteuk hated Henry. I couldn't believe something like that. Henry was amazing, and he always worked so hard to make everyone around him happy, and all we did was put more pressure on him. But the way he was reacting to my touches, made me realize it. Leeteuk hurt Henry. I had no idea what had been done I only knew it couldn't have been good. All I knew is that his back hurt. I waited for a bit until Henry calmed down, his grip on my arms becoming tighter.
"Henry, what happened?" I asked slowly trying to make my English understandable. I held him closer as he pulled himself up so he was laying on my chest. I pulled myself up against the wall for support, and softly pulled him with me, making sure his back wasn't in an unusual position. He ended being seated in-between my legs, his back on my stomach, and my arms around his chest.
I tried to understand the story he told me. Not only was I not fluent in English, he'd start to cry on and off. All I could catch on was a few simple Leeteuk facts. Leeteuk had sexually abused him (sounded more like rape), he fell off something landing on his back, breaking his violin. I held him close. He bawled louder, and he soon fell asleep, me closely following.
Henry:
I hoped that as soon as I relaxed Donghae would fall asleep. I needed to stand up my back was screaming in pain. I slid out from under his arms, biting my lip trying to even the pain in my body. He snorted loudly rolling over to the side. I smiled as I stared at him. I was so glad to know Donghae was there for me. That he pulled me off the floor, he did everything. I had no idea what I could do to repay him.
I inched my way to the bathroom, trying my best not to scream in pain. My butt burned, and my back stung. My neck was sensitive to any simple movement. Once, in the bathroom, I turned on the hot water in the bath, and plugged up the bottom. I slowly pulled of my clothing, and piled them neatly in a corner. I looked in the full body mirror. The ripped sheet covered my body, red spots sticking through them. I slowly unwrapped them revealing my blood stained skin. My body shook; I could feel his warm body on mine, his touch burning, and it being so sensual.
I turned off the water, putting my foot in slowly followed by my other foot. The warm water stung at first, but brought complete warmth to my now frozen body. My back lowered in inch by inch the water stinging my open flesh, I screamed lightly once my full body was under the water. The warm heat rushed through slits in my back, and the numbness soon went away. I wanted the feeling back at first, with my back numb I couldn't feel much, but in the water my body was exposed.
I closed my eyes laying my head on the side of the tub. My hands traced my legs underneath the water sending cold streaks through my body. I let out a deep breath and relaxed. I could feel Leeteuk's touch lingering on my skin. I knew he wasn't there, but his presence was. The entire time I wanted to yell at him to stop. To scream his name out in pain, but I kept it in. I knew it's what he wanted, deep down inside; his cock was what I wanted. That pain was nothing close to the actual pain my body was in. It felt great, amazing, and I wanted more of it.
My back slowly slid down the bath walls, as my head came under the water. The warmth once again flooded my body. I was freezing, but the warm water around me, warmed my skin. I brought my head up only enough so my mouth and nose stuck out of the water so I could breath. My now warm body burned, and enjoyed the warm water. I let my hands float to the top, my entire body and one's mercy once again.
Donghae:
I hadn't known I had drifted asleep. But the minute he left I knew. I assumed Henry had left me for a simple pain, but once, I turned around to notice he wasn't in my bed I laid there waiting for him to return. After a twenty minutes I got up and stretched out a bit. Where had he gone to? Had I hurt him without knowing? I looked around the room once more, only to know see the broken violin next to his nightstand. Every bit of it in pieces. I stared at it only to see Henry teaching me the violin. How could I repay him? How could I make the now unbearable pain a little bit lighter? How could I be there for him?
Yesung:
The awkward feeling in dorm one grew as the day went on. My mind traced back to Henry, and Leeteuk never came out of his room. He had only come out once for a bag of ice. I watched him carefully and followed him back making sure he wasn't proud of himself. Kangin stayed in the room, and Sungmin and Shindong had left to do their own shopping.
I flopped on my bed closing my eyes tightly. I wanted to be the one there for Henry. Hell, I was the one there for Henry. But he thought it was Donghae. How was I ever going to compete with him? A sweep of depression swept through my body. I couldn't be as good as Donghae. Henry had known Donghae longer. They were both dancers. Donghae taught Henry Korean, and how to sing. Henry had taught Donghae English, and how to play the violin. They shared a room together. They were in China together. How could I beat that?
I was just some singer, in the full group whose fans hated the person I loved. I shoved away the depressing thoughts, only to be filled with a sense of loneliness. I wanted Henry, and so bad. I'd always watch him practice, and watch him smile. He had to of fell something with Donghae. It's when he most smiled. It's when he most laughed. And Me? I smiled most when I saw him, and laugh inside when I saw him. I shook my head, and opened my eyes at the slight touch of hands on my waist.
I opened them to see Ryeowook, sliding up onto my body staring at me.
"Hyung?" His voice swam through my ears. For now he would do. My angel that had always been there. The one who would help me talk to my mother. My wall. My support. My closest link to Henry.
Donghae:
It had been a few days after the incident with Henry and Leeteuk. Only Yesung, Henry, Leeteuk and I knew about what actually happened. Henry would cry himself to sleep, asking me to hold him, thanking me for what I did for him. I'd just shrug and hold his small precious body close to mine. I wanted to keep him warm. To make sure I was his wall.
Breakfasts were awkward in dorm two. Ryeowook looked at us suspiciously, and would bring something up about Yesung. Henry would tense up and want to leave. Siwon soon caught on to Henry's back, and he assumed it was due to him falling. Henry and I played it out well, as if he fell while practicing. He helped Henry the most with walking around, and gave much advice to him. Henry ended up crying to Siwon about the truth and he too tensed up with anger.
Dorm two was suddenly flooding with rumors of what Leeteuk did to Henry. Henry shoved it off saying 'Teukie-Hyung' would never hurt him. But dorm one got suspicious when Yesung would get worked up over the rumors. To prove that nothing happened between Leeteuk and Henry, Kangin insisted they be in the same room. And so it was. Henry sat on the couch next to Leeteuk and the two talked. You wouldn't be able to tell anything was wrong, if you didn't know Henry. His hands became pale, and he smiled too much. He was uncomfortable. We all saw it. Besides them. Leeteuk would often smile at him, obviously dirty thoughts. Anger ran through my veins and I wanted to strangle him. But Yesung and I made a pact.
No one was to touch Henry or Leeteuk. This was their fight. We both knew what happened. But what was more bothersome is that only Yesung and I knew who really helped Henry. I didn't want to hurt either of them. But he had so much trust in me now. I loved it when he wanted me to hold him. One glimpse, one touch of his skin would drive me up a wall. I wanted Henry, and Yesung couldn't have him.
Henry:
It was driving me insane sitting next to Leeteuk. Him only sitting a few inches from me, I could smell his skin. I wanted him. I didn't know what controlled me. I never wanted Leeteuk. I never wanted to be with him. But the way he treated me. Abused me. Turned me on. I hated this man so much, but I wanted him. I'd sit there trying to resist touching him, but he'd soon wrap his arm around me making my stomach ache, and my body shake. His simple touch made my mind trace back to that night. Made me remember everything.
The pain in my back was gone, but the scars marked. Usually after dancing for a few hours my back would be rushing with pain, as if it just happened again. At night I'd lay in my bed only to think of Leeteuk. I'd fantasize that Donghae's touch was Leetuek's, and I'd feel warmer. But then I'd remember the soft hands and the sly movements of Donghae who helped me. I'd feel ecstasy rush through me once more, but when I'd sense the skin my body would freeze. No one could calm me down.
But at this moment sitting next to Leeteuk I felt intimidated. He'd smile at me if nothing happened. I knew it's what he wanted it to feel like. But when he'd look at me while others weren't looking he's smile turned into a smirk. The same smirk. And his eyes ripped apart my soul. I sat there awkwardly for a while with Leeteuk's arm around my shoulders. Donghae, Ryeowook and Yesung staring at me. I'd smile to let them know all was good, and mostly to tell Ryeowook to stay where he was. The mood around all three of them had changed, and I disliked it.
We all sat in silence until manager Lee Soo Man came in. It was a pleasure to see a face that I could talk to. He smiled and came in rambled in Korean, and the guys cheered. He smiled and looked at me.
"We will be doing a 2 week trip to see every one's home town." He smiled at me, and I nodded in agreement. "Henry, we'll be stopping in Canada, next Tuesday for a 3 day trip, tell your family."
My eyes went wide. My family. I hadn't talked to them since SJ-M went back into the recording studio; 4 months ago.
Donghae:
After Lee Soo Man had come to talk to us we all rushed of packing. The day was almost over and tomorrow morning we were leaving for Mokpo. Ryeowook and I talked for hours about what our plans were. It would be the first time Henry and Zhou would be coming to our hometowns. After the whole drama with Leeteuk and Henry it's just what we needed. To get out. No work, just play. Relaxation and traveling through Korea, stopping in China, and then shooting of into Canada.
I packed my suitcase and sat on my bed staring at Henry. He was hesitantly packing, shaking his head every now and then. After a few minutes of him pacing back and forth throwing pieces of clothes onto his suitcase, he let out a grunt and fell on his bed. I laughed and got up walking towards him. I jumped on the bed, and his head perked up looking at me.
"Hae?"
His voice was again softly caressing my ears. My hand moved his feather-like hair out of the way of his forehead. I kissed him softly and he sighed. I stared at his small brown eyes.
"What's wrong?" I asked slowly. Even after studying English for a longtime, I haven't gotten used to the phrasing. But when I talked to Henry he understood, and my heart would flutter. Only for him.
"I can't go back home." He turned on his stomach facing me. "I don't want to go."
I looked at him slightly confused and kissed his lips. "It'll be fine."
A/N: I suck at moving the plot along. Don't be expecting a lot of things to make sense. It's so complicated to move this plot along. I hope this chapter satifies people. If not I'll just post part 5 up sooner. >> I'm sorry guys! Thank you for staying with me this long!
Rating: R, NC-17
Genre: SMUT, Drama, Romance,
Summary: Henry just wants to figure out what true love is. With 3 men running after him, he never knows whats going to happen. But after a strong abuse from fellow band mates, Henry is afraid to admit the truth hiding in himself, and to the others.
Couples: HenWook, HenHae, YeHen, YeWook (ninja)
WARNING: This story brings up a lot of ONLY13, Forever15. PLEASE Do not comment on this subject. I also know Leeteuk isn't this much of an ass >> but he fit the part. I'm sorry ;-; No bashing please ;-;
Henry:
I was finally asleep after so long. My dreams brought me goose bumps. I felt his soft skin against mine. I felt his nails digging into my skin, the strings ripping apart my flesh, his tongue licking up the blood. I'd shake at the thought, but at the same time, I wanted more of him. Not the pain, just the pleasure. I woke up suddenly at a small touch against my back, bringing me from my dreams. I screamed in fright, and in pain. The minute my eyes opened, and I realized I was awake I was in complete pain.
"Leave me alone!" I yelled, trying my best not to move my back knowing the great deal of pain that would shoot through me. I held it in as I felt the hand slide off my waist.
"Henry." I stopped shaking when I heard the voice. "Calm down, it's me." Donghae was there. He saved me. I cried as I turned over, on my numb back and smiled looking at Donghae.
"Hae?" My voice fell and tears flowed out. I wanted him to hold me.
Donghae:
I felt bad as he came towards me. The blankets fell off his small body, and his shirt was tightly placed over what it appeared to be sheets. I bit my lip trying not to cry. I had to be strong for him. I put my arms around him, as he buried his head into my shoulders. I softly laid my hands on his head, and he shook. It seemed like no matter what I did to him, he shook. I patted his head.
"Henry." I tired to say something, but nothing worked. Anything I said made him cry even more. I held him, starting to slowly rock back and forth. His tears fell out more. I continued to rock him. I felt so bad; I couldn't do anything to cheer him up. He was so fragile, I was afraid any movement my body made would make him flinch. I sat there for awhile rocking back and forth until it hit me.
Yesung was right the entire time. He told me that Leeteuk hated Henry. I couldn't believe something like that. Henry was amazing, and he always worked so hard to make everyone around him happy, and all we did was put more pressure on him. But the way he was reacting to my touches, made me realize it. Leeteuk hurt Henry. I had no idea what had been done I only knew it couldn't have been good. All I knew is that his back hurt. I waited for a bit until Henry calmed down, his grip on my arms becoming tighter.
"Henry, what happened?" I asked slowly trying to make my English understandable. I held him closer as he pulled himself up so he was laying on my chest. I pulled myself up against the wall for support, and softly pulled him with me, making sure his back wasn't in an unusual position. He ended being seated in-between my legs, his back on my stomach, and my arms around his chest.
I tried to understand the story he told me. Not only was I not fluent in English, he'd start to cry on and off. All I could catch on was a few simple Leeteuk facts. Leeteuk had sexually abused him (sounded more like rape), he fell off something landing on his back, breaking his violin. I held him close. He bawled louder, and he soon fell asleep, me closely following.
Henry:
I hoped that as soon as I relaxed Donghae would fall asleep. I needed to stand up my back was screaming in pain. I slid out from under his arms, biting my lip trying to even the pain in my body. He snorted loudly rolling over to the side. I smiled as I stared at him. I was so glad to know Donghae was there for me. That he pulled me off the floor, he did everything. I had no idea what I could do to repay him.
I inched my way to the bathroom, trying my best not to scream in pain. My butt burned, and my back stung. My neck was sensitive to any simple movement. Once, in the bathroom, I turned on the hot water in the bath, and plugged up the bottom. I slowly pulled of my clothing, and piled them neatly in a corner. I looked in the full body mirror. The ripped sheet covered my body, red spots sticking through them. I slowly unwrapped them revealing my blood stained skin. My body shook; I could feel his warm body on mine, his touch burning, and it being so sensual.
I turned off the water, putting my foot in slowly followed by my other foot. The warm water stung at first, but brought complete warmth to my now frozen body. My back lowered in inch by inch the water stinging my open flesh, I screamed lightly once my full body was under the water. The warm heat rushed through slits in my back, and the numbness soon went away. I wanted the feeling back at first, with my back numb I couldn't feel much, but in the water my body was exposed.
I closed my eyes laying my head on the side of the tub. My hands traced my legs underneath the water sending cold streaks through my body. I let out a deep breath and relaxed. I could feel Leeteuk's touch lingering on my skin. I knew he wasn't there, but his presence was. The entire time I wanted to yell at him to stop. To scream his name out in pain, but I kept it in. I knew it's what he wanted, deep down inside; his cock was what I wanted. That pain was nothing close to the actual pain my body was in. It felt great, amazing, and I wanted more of it.
My back slowly slid down the bath walls, as my head came under the water. The warmth once again flooded my body. I was freezing, but the warm water around me, warmed my skin. I brought my head up only enough so my mouth and nose stuck out of the water so I could breath. My now warm body burned, and enjoyed the warm water. I let my hands float to the top, my entire body and one's mercy once again.
Donghae:
I hadn't known I had drifted asleep. But the minute he left I knew. I assumed Henry had left me for a simple pain, but once, I turned around to notice he wasn't in my bed I laid there waiting for him to return. After a twenty minutes I got up and stretched out a bit. Where had he gone to? Had I hurt him without knowing? I looked around the room once more, only to know see the broken violin next to his nightstand. Every bit of it in pieces. I stared at it only to see Henry teaching me the violin. How could I repay him? How could I make the now unbearable pain a little bit lighter? How could I be there for him?
Yesung:
The awkward feeling in dorm one grew as the day went on. My mind traced back to Henry, and Leeteuk never came out of his room. He had only come out once for a bag of ice. I watched him carefully and followed him back making sure he wasn't proud of himself. Kangin stayed in the room, and Sungmin and Shindong had left to do their own shopping.
I flopped on my bed closing my eyes tightly. I wanted to be the one there for Henry. Hell, I was the one there for Henry. But he thought it was Donghae. How was I ever going to compete with him? A sweep of depression swept through my body. I couldn't be as good as Donghae. Henry had known Donghae longer. They were both dancers. Donghae taught Henry Korean, and how to sing. Henry had taught Donghae English, and how to play the violin. They shared a room together. They were in China together. How could I beat that?
I was just some singer, in the full group whose fans hated the person I loved. I shoved away the depressing thoughts, only to be filled with a sense of loneliness. I wanted Henry, and so bad. I'd always watch him practice, and watch him smile. He had to of fell something with Donghae. It's when he most smiled. It's when he most laughed. And Me? I smiled most when I saw him, and laugh inside when I saw him. I shook my head, and opened my eyes at the slight touch of hands on my waist.
I opened them to see Ryeowook, sliding up onto my body staring at me.
"Hyung?" His voice swam through my ears. For now he would do. My angel that had always been there. The one who would help me talk to my mother. My wall. My support. My closest link to Henry.
Donghae:
It had been a few days after the incident with Henry and Leeteuk. Only Yesung, Henry, Leeteuk and I knew about what actually happened. Henry would cry himself to sleep, asking me to hold him, thanking me for what I did for him. I'd just shrug and hold his small precious body close to mine. I wanted to keep him warm. To make sure I was his wall.
Breakfasts were awkward in dorm two. Ryeowook looked at us suspiciously, and would bring something up about Yesung. Henry would tense up and want to leave. Siwon soon caught on to Henry's back, and he assumed it was due to him falling. Henry and I played it out well, as if he fell while practicing. He helped Henry the most with walking around, and gave much advice to him. Henry ended up crying to Siwon about the truth and he too tensed up with anger.
Dorm two was suddenly flooding with rumors of what Leeteuk did to Henry. Henry shoved it off saying 'Teukie-Hyung' would never hurt him. But dorm one got suspicious when Yesung would get worked up over the rumors. To prove that nothing happened between Leeteuk and Henry, Kangin insisted they be in the same room. And so it was. Henry sat on the couch next to Leeteuk and the two talked. You wouldn't be able to tell anything was wrong, if you didn't know Henry. His hands became pale, and he smiled too much. He was uncomfortable. We all saw it. Besides them. Leeteuk would often smile at him, obviously dirty thoughts. Anger ran through my veins and I wanted to strangle him. But Yesung and I made a pact.
No one was to touch Henry or Leeteuk. This was their fight. We both knew what happened. But what was more bothersome is that only Yesung and I knew who really helped Henry. I didn't want to hurt either of them. But he had so much trust in me now. I loved it when he wanted me to hold him. One glimpse, one touch of his skin would drive me up a wall. I wanted Henry, and Yesung couldn't have him.
Henry:
It was driving me insane sitting next to Leeteuk. Him only sitting a few inches from me, I could smell his skin. I wanted him. I didn't know what controlled me. I never wanted Leeteuk. I never wanted to be with him. But the way he treated me. Abused me. Turned me on. I hated this man so much, but I wanted him. I'd sit there trying to resist touching him, but he'd soon wrap his arm around me making my stomach ache, and my body shake. His simple touch made my mind trace back to that night. Made me remember everything.
The pain in my back was gone, but the scars marked. Usually after dancing for a few hours my back would be rushing with pain, as if it just happened again. At night I'd lay in my bed only to think of Leeteuk. I'd fantasize that Donghae's touch was Leetuek's, and I'd feel warmer. But then I'd remember the soft hands and the sly movements of Donghae who helped me. I'd feel ecstasy rush through me once more, but when I'd sense the skin my body would freeze. No one could calm me down.
But at this moment sitting next to Leeteuk I felt intimidated. He'd smile at me if nothing happened. I knew it's what he wanted it to feel like. But when he'd look at me while others weren't looking he's smile turned into a smirk. The same smirk. And his eyes ripped apart my soul. I sat there awkwardly for a while with Leeteuk's arm around my shoulders. Donghae, Ryeowook and Yesung staring at me. I'd smile to let them know all was good, and mostly to tell Ryeowook to stay where he was. The mood around all three of them had changed, and I disliked it.
We all sat in silence until manager Lee Soo Man came in. It was a pleasure to see a face that I could talk to. He smiled and came in rambled in Korean, and the guys cheered. He smiled and looked at me.
"We will be doing a 2 week trip to see every one's home town." He smiled at me, and I nodded in agreement. "Henry, we'll be stopping in Canada, next Tuesday for a 3 day trip, tell your family."
My eyes went wide. My family. I hadn't talked to them since SJ-M went back into the recording studio; 4 months ago.
Donghae:
After Lee Soo Man had come to talk to us we all rushed of packing. The day was almost over and tomorrow morning we were leaving for Mokpo. Ryeowook and I talked for hours about what our plans were. It would be the first time Henry and Zhou would be coming to our hometowns. After the whole drama with Leeteuk and Henry it's just what we needed. To get out. No work, just play. Relaxation and traveling through Korea, stopping in China, and then shooting of into Canada.
I packed my suitcase and sat on my bed staring at Henry. He was hesitantly packing, shaking his head every now and then. After a few minutes of him pacing back and forth throwing pieces of clothes onto his suitcase, he let out a grunt and fell on his bed. I laughed and got up walking towards him. I jumped on the bed, and his head perked up looking at me.
"Hae?"
His voice was again softly caressing my ears. My hand moved his feather-like hair out of the way of his forehead. I kissed him softly and he sighed. I stared at his small brown eyes.
"What's wrong?" I asked slowly. Even after studying English for a longtime, I haven't gotten used to the phrasing. But when I talked to Henry he understood, and my heart would flutter. Only for him.
"I can't go back home." He turned on his stomach facing me. "I don't want to go."
I looked at him slightly confused and kissed his lips. "It'll be fine."
A/N: I suck at moving the plot along. Don't be expecting a lot of things to make sense. It's so complicated to move this plot along. I hope this chapter satifies people. If not I'll just post part 5 up sooner. >> I'm sorry guys! Thank you for staying with me this long!