cooking shit.
i am fucking stupid. also, i am not doing so well inside. i feel like i'm decaying and i'm starting to break down. i should try and fix things, but i don't know how or where to start. i'm really lonely.
my friend bobby fainted in class today. he has some sort of heart problem. i hope he's alright. i like that kid a lot, but i don't show it. he's too nice. he's one of those kids that has shitty problems and doesn't deserve them because he's too good of a person. that makes me sad. that makes me want to give up and turn it all in.
i miss talking to kristen u.. i feel really lame when i'm around her. i don't think she likes me. i think that's my fault, but i don't know why.
i hope i get that phonecall.
this is stupid.
this has been the worst year.
*happy birthday, michelle. i miss you and i love you. i hope you're having a good one. i'm sorry i'm grounded and that i won't be able to go midnight bowling with you. i suck. you can beat me up or something the next time we see each other.