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01.02.04 : I made all sorts of resolutions, promises and proclamations. 2004 was going to go my way, and at the time my way was going to be leading straight to you.
01.17.04 : Had a terrible nightmare, which later I found out was true. It's so strange to me how our dreams often give a little preview of what's to come like our mind somehow knows, long before the rest of us when things are going to shit.
01.21.04 : Made my first of many attempts to quit a multitude of things in my life, it would be quite awhile before I realized, you can't quit emotions. Also, was a few moments late on my happy birthday wish to my sanity.
01.23.04 : Everything flew out the window.
01.30.04 I missed you, big time. Hell, I missed myself too.
01.31.04 : We were all so silly, and girlie and it was great. Too bad there are little red X's everywhere.
02.06.04 : I have this habit of even after I realized people are gone, begging for them to come back. Same thing with situations, once something has passed I always want it back, and want the chance to do it again. Nostalgia is a whore.
02.11.04 Happy Valentines Day, loverboy.
02.23.04 : We always beg for the things we don't have, until we have them. I wanted consistency so bad, until I had it.
02.28.04 : 2 days before this I broke my arm, lost faith in you, and believed you were somehow back for good. Crazzzzy. Action action, we want action.
03.04.04 : Developed some sort of weird crush type thing on you around this time.
03.05.04: I love these guys so freaking much.
03.10.04 : I'm not depressed just heartbroken, and nobody ever died of a broken heart, right? Ha.
04.25.04 : I was craving memories, and needed you to speak up. Also, the night before Renee and I had gone to London Bridge and sat and talked. I really miss doing that.
05.09.04 : Holy crap, I loved you so much it was all I could do.
05.18.04 This is one of my favorite lj entries of this year, Happy Birthday to me.
05.30.04: Renee is such a brut, and I'm such a professional housesitter. This seems like it was only yesterday, insanity.
06.09.04 : sex sex sex was all I thought about, had myself a big fat crush on Timmy too. He's one of my favorite new friends of 2004.
06.17.04 Birth to now, life's crazy. I really think things started looking up around this time.
06.24.04 I can't remember why we were all together, but it sure was fun.
07.01.04 Haha, I was housesitting and got so drunk all by myself, I was pathetic. Crying, puking and hungover. Hahaha. I really just missed you, and could see what was happening and didn't know how to stop it. Things happen for a reason though, and I suppose oneday we'll know. Also this was the first time I talked with Chris Monjuuuu. :D
07.14.04 : Rob Birch is one of the most intelligent men ever. Letting go, isn't about just saying it.
07.30.04 : Again, I just missed you.
08.03.04: Birthday party for Mandy, and talk of funny rock n roll boys with messy hair and band shirts..mmm.
08.09.04: gee, i wonder what was on my mind. AND IS CONSTANTLY ON MY FREAKING MIND.
08.10.04 : Life really would be okay, I'd get along with him and I'd fill the void from her.
08.17.04 : August was a rough month, I came to terms with two super huge losses, and tried to pick up the pieces.
09.08.04 : Salad tossing, anyone?
09.27.04 : Was without power for like 24 hours due to the hurricane, horrible.
10.06.04 : Was reunited with Sam sometime around this time, man I miss that booger.
10.11.04 I heard lots of horrible things about you around this time, and wanted so badly to talk to you about it but knew I couldn't.
11.04.04 Except I really did.
11.08.04 The ladies visited me at work, which was fab. Tried to go to the doggy park, just got excellente pictures instead. Life was dope, and it was almost fall.
11.11.04 : I missed Sam. Re-fell in love with the Flaming Lips, and went to Bennagins with Tonia. Took this awesome picture of the Acosta Bridge.
11.21.04 : I love me some Mandy Heaton. That was such a fun night (the night these pictures were taken, not 11.21.04), we all went to the Ritz came home and Mandy and I talked to Adam til early in the morning.
12.07.04: Went to Crush with Mandy and Carolyn. So much freaking fun. Champagne, cheese, and lego roads--Life doesn't get any better.
Looking through all those old entries made me feel so weird. I'm so excited about this new year coming up, things are always so fresh (and so clean clean) and promising when it's New Years.
I've still got to come up with my New Years Resolutions, but I think I want some help this year so I'd like for each one of you to come up with one for me. Be serious, so Mike no saying "For your new years resolution I'd like you to fart on my face 10 times." Cause, I won't. :D I might as well do that post your favorite memory of me from this year thing. So yah, do that too. I really hope you do it, because I'm very curious to see what your favorite memory is.
In todays news : I'm extra sick, and hoping they'll send me home from work tonight cause I've got lots of snot, and not a lot of patience.
CC LOVE:
1. If dreams are like movies then memories are films about ghosts.
2. You can never escape you can only move south down the coast.
3. If you've never stared off into the distance then your life is a shame. You know I'll never forget your face, sometimes I can't remember my name.
4. Well I know I don't know you, and you're probably not what you seem but I'd sure like to find out so why don't you climb down off that movie screen.