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There comes a point in everyone's life where you take a step back at what you've done, where you've been, who you've met and really, I can honestly say. I'm not too fucking pleased. I never expected myself to be where I am right now and I don't know where to go from this point. I'm so sick of my current job, I hate the people around me, literally, I am accumulating more debt and never seem to get anywhere when I try to tackle something. I get jobs for web design, but no one wants to fucking pay! I don't know. I give up really. I don't wanna do this web design crap anymore. It's just an extra stress in my life I don't need right now. I just want to get the hell out of Alberta and get back home and try to get my head on straight. I want to be normal. I want to not worry about myself day in and day out. I am making myself sick with worry and regret for things I should have done and things I did do. I just feel like breaking down. Giving in by giving up. I get more warnings from my cell phone about a dead battery than I do calls. I get more grief from the people around me than compassion. I get taken advantage of. I'm here for your walking. Feel free to step on me during your trek in life. Feel free to use me to accomplish something to make yourself a better person in your own eyes. Ridicule me for the things I find interest in. Laugh at me for being the way I am. Why? Because I would if I was you.