Jody and Sherriy,

[shes_a_poser]

I'm sorry I'm like this. I'm sorry I smoke pot, I'm sorry I steal. I'm sorry I came into your guys' lives expecting to be able to build a better foundation than the one I've been raised with, only to test you guys to the brink and refuse to help myself like I need to. I'm not a bad kid, though, and I wish you guys would see that if you dont. I know you guys look at the teenagers that do bad things such as smoke or steal and think badly of them, but it's not always our fault we do the things we do. The things we do to get by each day make us hated, because most of the time no one looks below our surface, they assume the worse inside and out. They automatically think that we are bad kids and look down their noses at us. They dont want to help, only judge.

I dont know what to say to change your guys' minds about me because I know I've lost respect from you, and whatever I'm punished with I will probably deserve. I just hope that you guys will realize what I'm going through and that neglecting to help me and just punishing me isnt going to make me learn my lesson any easier. It's hard for me to live in a place I know hardly anything about, it's hard not being able to trust in the unconditional love real parents have for their kids.

I dont regret what I've done because I'm growing and I'm trying to get by. Maybe not as hard as I could be trying, but I am.

~rag doll

Ps. Happy 15th Birthday to me.