toxic shock syndrom
I feel like a character in a book or an actor in an after school TV program, read about or watched mainly for someone's entertainment. Isn't it true, though? I know Jody and Sherriy read this, or at least, I know Sherriy and Derek do.
You can never expect privacy to be respected, and I love writing too much to end it just because everyone here is able to find out the good things and the irresponsible things I do. Oh well, youre suppose to know what goes on in your kid's lives.
Tonight was crazy... though relivable. Zach came over to wish me an early happy birthday because he thought it was tomorrow because he thought today was the 13th... it's the thought that counts. At least he remembered and cared enough to stop by. Zach stayed a while, we hung out, and it was fun... I'm worried about him, though. I was woken up at 5 in the morning to hear that he got "jumped" after he left :( Hopefully I'll be able to talk to him tomorrow to make sure he's okay. It was a heart attack that got to him the day he went to the hospital, so he's fragile right now, I guess. He's been running a lot lately for track and stuff even though he's not supposed to. That's one thing that's been messing with his heart.
Zach is such a troubled boy... but I like and care for him, even with all his faults. It's not like I'm any better than he is, anyway.
I know Jody and Sherriy dont like him.
Nate is awesome. He's so... hey-I'm-wealthy-and-smart-and-good-looking-and-popular-and-one-day-I'm-going-to-be-a-prince-and-do-the-cinderella-thing-and-marry-a-girl-whose-lower-class-than-I-but-I-love-her-to-death-even-if-she's-a-vindictive-bitch-(but-well-rounded)-oh-yeah-did-I-mention-I'm-wealthy-and-one-more-thing-drugs-are-bad-and-praise-God!
He has had his heart set on marrying me since I was 12 and he was 14 :P We've been friends since then. I got an email from him tonight of which I love. In it he called me a vindictive bitch, but it was so cute the way he worded everything. I laughed.
You know, there's not that much to rely on in this world. Why am I so worried about what other people think? I have this need to be liked by everyone, and I dont like it. Some of the time it's like I'm play doh and if it would make someone happy for me to mold into the shape of a horse I'll do it, even if I dont have enough to make a fourth leg.
I dont like horses :(
Wow. It's 6:37. I fell asleep watching Anchorman tonight and woke up at 2thirty to climb into my bed. Jesse's friend is awake, too.
Maybe I should go to bed. Or eat. Or finish watching Anchorman. Or... yeah. I think I'll sleep.
~rag doll
Ps. 2 days...
Pss. Oh yeah! I forgot! Jody and Sherriy are out of town until Sunday.
You can never expect privacy to be respected, and I love writing too much to end it just because everyone here is able to find out the good things and the irresponsible things I do. Oh well, youre suppose to know what goes on in your kid's lives.
Tonight was crazy... though relivable. Zach came over to wish me an early happy birthday because he thought it was tomorrow because he thought today was the 13th... it's the thought that counts. At least he remembered and cared enough to stop by. Zach stayed a while, we hung out, and it was fun... I'm worried about him, though. I was woken up at 5 in the morning to hear that he got "jumped" after he left :( Hopefully I'll be able to talk to him tomorrow to make sure he's okay. It was a heart attack that got to him the day he went to the hospital, so he's fragile right now, I guess. He's been running a lot lately for track and stuff even though he's not supposed to. That's one thing that's been messing with his heart.
Zach is such a troubled boy... but I like and care for him, even with all his faults. It's not like I'm any better than he is, anyway.
I know Jody and Sherriy dont like him.
Nate is awesome. He's so... hey-I'm-wealthy-and-smart-and-good-looking-and-popular-and-one-day-I'm-going-to-be-a-prince-and-do-the-cinderella-thing-and-marry-a-girl-whose-lower-class-than-I-but-I-love-her-to-death-even-if-she's-a-vindictive-bitch-(but-well-rounded)-oh-yeah-did-I-mention-I'm-wealthy-and-one-more-thing-drugs-are-bad-and-praise-God!
He has had his heart set on marrying me since I was 12 and he was 14 :P We've been friends since then. I got an email from him tonight of which I love. In it he called me a vindictive bitch, but it was so cute the way he worded everything. I laughed.
You know, there's not that much to rely on in this world. Why am I so worried about what other people think? I have this need to be liked by everyone, and I dont like it. Some of the time it's like I'm play doh and if it would make someone happy for me to mold into the shape of a horse I'll do it, even if I dont have enough to make a fourth leg.
I dont like horses :(
Wow. It's 6:37. I fell asleep watching Anchorman tonight and woke up at 2thirty to climb into my bed. Jesse's friend is awake, too.
Maybe I should go to bed. Or eat. Or finish watching Anchorman. Or... yeah. I think I'll sleep.
~rag doll
Ps. 2 days...
Pss. Oh yeah! I forgot! Jody and Sherriy are out of town until Sunday.