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There have been a couple times this week where I could of made the perfect entry. Short, but sweet... I really wish I would have made those, but the idea for them came to me after I had already had my hour a day online. Sucks, I know :(
A couple nights ago, I felt something I've never felt before... I actually craved a cigarette. That's weird for me, considering I hate them. What's even more weird; I craved one tonight, too, on our way out to dinner. I enjoy the calming taste of a cancer stick from time to time, but never do I crave them!
It's been a while since I've had a good high... today I stopped by my aunt's on my way home from school, and I wound up staying for about an hour. We got onto a conversation about my mom, talking about her condition, which lead to talking about her past drug use. She got skitzophrenia from her mom and made it worse with pot, acid, (supposedly), and cocain... I never plan on doing the last two, but if I wind up having skitzophrenia, I hope it wont be affected by choices I'm making now. That would suck.
Sooo... I turn 15 in 18 days. That's pretty cool :) I have no clue what I'll be doing on my birthday, though. There's a list here in front of the computer Sherriy wrote... I guess it's things she needs to spend money on in February... she mentions Jesse's birthday, but not mine... :(
There's a sweet heart's dance on the 19th of February. Since Zach and I are officially done (and I believe he's got another girl already... 15 years old, this time) I do not intend on going... but... I think I'm forming a crush on this one guy. I had a crush on him in 6th grade when he was in 8th. He's cute. I'll probably mention more about him later, if I actually try to pursue something with him.
I dont want a boyfriend right now, but it would be fun to date a little, I guess... oh, hecks, I just want some love :(
~rag doll
A couple nights ago, I felt something I've never felt before... I actually craved a cigarette. That's weird for me, considering I hate them. What's even more weird; I craved one tonight, too, on our way out to dinner. I enjoy the calming taste of a cancer stick from time to time, but never do I crave them!
It's been a while since I've had a good high... today I stopped by my aunt's on my way home from school, and I wound up staying for about an hour. We got onto a conversation about my mom, talking about her condition, which lead to talking about her past drug use. She got skitzophrenia from her mom and made it worse with pot, acid, (supposedly), and cocain... I never plan on doing the last two, but if I wind up having skitzophrenia, I hope it wont be affected by choices I'm making now. That would suck.
Sooo... I turn 15 in 18 days. That's pretty cool :) I have no clue what I'll be doing on my birthday, though. There's a list here in front of the computer Sherriy wrote... I guess it's things she needs to spend money on in February... she mentions Jesse's birthday, but not mine... :(
There's a sweet heart's dance on the 19th of February. Since Zach and I are officially done (and I believe he's got another girl already... 15 years old, this time) I do not intend on going... but... I think I'm forming a crush on this one guy. I had a crush on him in 6th grade when he was in 8th. He's cute. I'll probably mention more about him later, if I actually try to pursue something with him.
I dont want a boyfriend right now, but it would be fun to date a little, I guess... oh, hecks, I just want some love :(
~rag doll