hmm...
You know that saying, "If you cant beat them, join them"? I've begun thinking about that. I dont know if I should stoop down to the level of an average freshman or continue on with how I am now. I want to have a steady relationship with a guy, but it's so hard to find one. Do I keep looking or do I date around? I dont know. I'm so young, so the second one seems to fit, but I want so badly to be with just one person... right now, that person is Zach. I dont know where things are headed with him. He's so unpredictable. Tomorrow we plan to talk about everything going on... again. More, this time. I had to hunt him down after school to talk to him because of some rumours about "why he broke up with me" even though my truth is what I was told by him, himself, but it's hard with what other people say, too. It's highschool, though, so I guess I should expect stuff like that from people... who knows.
What I didnt like when I went up to talk to him (and this has been happening a lot lately) is that he glared at me the whole time... I hate that! Last Thursday things were so good, we were laughing and hugging and kissing, and within a week things are so bad. I cant stand it. I like that boy so much.
I talked to Sophie for about half an hour earlier. I'm calling her back at seven. Before moving in with Jody and Sherriy I talked to her every evening and I would go to her house a couple times a week, and every Sunday, for sure. I havent hung out with her in so long. Hopefully this Sunday we'll be able to hang out. I hope so :)
Haley and I have been hanging out lately, too. I dont know how long our casual friendship will hold up for this time, though.
I feel a lot better than I did yesterday and the day before, but not by much. Hopefully things will start getting better soon... if things go bad tomorrow when Zach and I talk, for instance if he doesnt show up at all, I dont know what's going to happen.
ahh... I meant for this entry to be short! I cant stop ranting, though.
I miss you, aaron! :( youre so intellectual... everyone else on my msn isnt.
dinner is soon. yay. meat with cheese inside of it and macaroni.
~rag doll
What I didnt like when I went up to talk to him (and this has been happening a lot lately) is that he glared at me the whole time... I hate that! Last Thursday things were so good, we were laughing and hugging and kissing, and within a week things are so bad. I cant stand it. I like that boy so much.
I talked to Sophie for about half an hour earlier. I'm calling her back at seven. Before moving in with Jody and Sherriy I talked to her every evening and I would go to her house a couple times a week, and every Sunday, for sure. I havent hung out with her in so long. Hopefully this Sunday we'll be able to hang out. I hope so :)
Haley and I have been hanging out lately, too. I dont know how long our casual friendship will hold up for this time, though.
I feel a lot better than I did yesterday and the day before, but not by much. Hopefully things will start getting better soon... if things go bad tomorrow when Zach and I talk, for instance if he doesnt show up at all, I dont know what's going to happen.
ahh... I meant for this entry to be short! I cant stop ranting, though.
I miss you, aaron! :( youre so intellectual... everyone else on my msn isnt.
dinner is soon. yay. meat with cheese inside of it and macaroni.
~rag doll