..I had a dream, all I'd need was a suitcase and a book of poetry
I’ve been really tired, but I slept in today until almost 10! This is how tired I’ve been though…
Friday I finished up my drawing (sitting in the theatre at lunch) to see that Flower had fallen asleep beside me. I laid down right next to her and the next thing I knew, Jessie had come to lay down too. Then, Reinaka joined in. So, there was the four of us, falling asleep on the dusty theatre floor. Next thing I knew, I was having a dream about some hazy figure with smoke around him, or so I think a 'him'.
Thursday I went out with Kristine. Friday I went over to Elisabeth’s and had her and her sister’s help me put in my contacts. Also, I came home and meditated for 3 and half hours straight, it was nice. I tried this new thing where you lay completely flat and release all tension in each limb from bottom to top and then envision yourself floating across the ocean. My body got tingly and it got kind of intense. Then I did my reiki breathing for who knows how long, because I was completely absorbed. Saturday, yesterday…woah. I was supposed to go work in the theatre from 1 till just around 3 so I could come home and change and shower and stop by at Sunnys party, then come home and go back out with a ‘friend’. Sooo didn’t happen, I ended up staying at the theatre and working on set’s until 8:30, yes, I was painting and building sets for seven and a half hours. I felt so bad not going to her party, but I stopped and saw my mom at the hospital and by the time I got home it was around 10 and I was soo tired, covered in paint and had (still have) blisters imbedded in my hands, but it was very much worth it. Now I’m really upset, I’ve had a long weekend, especially a long day today and I needed to come home and do lots of homework and talk to some people about plans. Then my parent’s go, “we’re going out to dinner” it’s already 7 o clock, I just don’t want to! I don’t understand why they always have to do things, why do we always have to go out to eat or movies? I’m so sick of it, I want to be left alone for more than 3 hours to go lay in the snow, or in my room with music and write without someone telling me to do something or get ready for something I don’t want to do. I need summer so bad so I can run to the pond and lay in the grass without phones ringing or people yelling and chaos around me. I also just want to be left alone right now; they can’t even give me that. Then my mother, she’s driving me crazy. I’m so sick of her shopping, telling about how people compliment her, picking at my clothes, telling me not to wear my Zeppelin T shirt, hiring a maid and telling my father she cleaned, working, being stuck up, completely petty and materialistic. God knows I love her but I need a break from her, I mean it. …wow, that all sounded ridiculously immature, I’m sorry but it needed to be said man. You know what song I’ve come to love? ‘Penny and me’ by Hanson. Hanson, yeah. I’m sorry I just can’t get enough of it, watch the video on Yahoo.com. Maybe I love it so because how the girl is this country girl playing with wildflowers and apple trees, and that is me, and her name…perhaps. So that’s an update (a vague one) in the many things going on with me at the moment. Going to dance with the love tribe…
Friday I finished up my drawing (sitting in the theatre at lunch) to see that Flower had fallen asleep beside me. I laid down right next to her and the next thing I knew, Jessie had come to lay down too. Then, Reinaka joined in. So, there was the four of us, falling asleep on the dusty theatre floor. Next thing I knew, I was having a dream about some hazy figure with smoke around him, or so I think a 'him'.
Thursday I went out with Kristine. Friday I went over to Elisabeth’s and had her and her sister’s help me put in my contacts. Also, I came home and meditated for 3 and half hours straight, it was nice. I tried this new thing where you lay completely flat and release all tension in each limb from bottom to top and then envision yourself floating across the ocean. My body got tingly and it got kind of intense. Then I did my reiki breathing for who knows how long, because I was completely absorbed. Saturday, yesterday…woah. I was supposed to go work in the theatre from 1 till just around 3 so I could come home and change and shower and stop by at Sunnys party, then come home and go back out with a ‘friend’. Sooo didn’t happen, I ended up staying at the theatre and working on set’s until 8:30, yes, I was painting and building sets for seven and a half hours. I felt so bad not going to her party, but I stopped and saw my mom at the hospital and by the time I got home it was around 10 and I was soo tired, covered in paint and had (still have) blisters imbedded in my hands, but it was very much worth it. Now I’m really upset, I’ve had a long weekend, especially a long day today and I needed to come home and do lots of homework and talk to some people about plans. Then my parent’s go, “we’re going out to dinner” it’s already 7 o clock, I just don’t want to! I don’t understand why they always have to do things, why do we always have to go out to eat or movies? I’m so sick of it, I want to be left alone for more than 3 hours to go lay in the snow, or in my room with music and write without someone telling me to do something or get ready for something I don’t want to do. I need summer so bad so I can run to the pond and lay in the grass without phones ringing or people yelling and chaos around me. I also just want to be left alone right now; they can’t even give me that. Then my mother, she’s driving me crazy. I’m so sick of her shopping, telling about how people compliment her, picking at my clothes, telling me not to wear my Zeppelin T shirt, hiring a maid and telling my father she cleaned, working, being stuck up, completely petty and materialistic. God knows I love her but I need a break from her, I mean it. …wow, that all sounded ridiculously immature, I’m sorry but it needed to be said man. You know what song I’ve come to love? ‘Penny and me’ by Hanson. Hanson, yeah. I’m sorry I just can’t get enough of it, watch the video on Yahoo.com. Maybe I love it so because how the girl is this country girl playing with wildflowers and apple trees, and that is me, and her name…perhaps. So that’s an update (a vague one) in the many things going on with me at the moment. Going to dance with the love tribe…