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This is so hard, stressful, painful, yet enjoyable. so many things are happening all at once and i cannot handle it all. i cannot multitask and i feel sometimes like i am letting my self down. I Feel like i have to be the perfect person for everyone. Like i always have to have a smile or be all happy giddy for everyone because thats who i am and thats what people expect me to be. and when i am not they wonder whats wrong and everything. SO i have been having rough days and at the end of the day i just want some love. thats all i want and thats all i need. My days are long, hot, sweaty, frustrating at times, stressful at times, and to be honest sometimes i dont want to be there because of some of the people that work there. gossip, cliques, gossip, boy crazy, and did i mention gossip??? it is unreal that when we are there for the day for the Kids and for God and it just never really gets anywhere fore some people. its just tought., i mean i dont really know what else to say but just pray for me his summer. that God would be the strength in me, he would be my thoughts about the children and the words that come out of my mouth.