#1 an inexplicable reappearance
Well, I haven't used livejournal in several years, and I'm not entirely sure what has motivated me to write anything on it now. Procrastination generally plays a part in it I guess. You see, I have a math midterm a week from today. And I'm sort of studying for it, but mostly I'm thinking about whether or not to open a new account on some blog site or just to use this old one. Moreover, I'm not even sure what I would say. But it's gotta be better than cruising facebook for no reason at all. At the very least I'm exercising my typing skills, haha.
I've been feeling peculiar lately, about lots of things, but specifically, towards school. I'm so close to the end now that I am beginning to feel excited. But this close proximity to the finish line comes with some unexpected inner turmoil that I suppose I should have seen coming. Like, for example, the fact that Ryan S. is in Italy right now. And Erin doesn't know where she's going to work or live in the next while, so she may live very near or very far depending on what happens. And the fact that Alexis is finished, and staying here indefinitely but likely will leave next summer. And the fact that Isabelle has said several times that she will leave Victoria just as soon as she can.
These things are just facts of life, I guess, and I am really not surprised by them at all. What really surprised and caught me off guard was the fact that I did not see this problem before it hit me all at once. That people are leaving. They're going off to start real life, and yeah, that's what we're supposed to be doing, and we've known that from the get-go. But what the hell? How did I manage to avoid that fact for 3 years? And what is going to happen when I graduate? I mean, it recently occurred to me that I don't have to live in B.C. for the rest of my life. HOW HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE? I always joke about living in some foreign country but I was scarcely seriously THINKING about it.
The trouble is (and this hardly sounds like a 'trouble' per se), I have a full-time, with benefits job lined up for fall with the company I have been working for for the last year and a half. I have a good base with them, I have an awesome supervisor, and I generally like the people there. But do I really want to stay there? I mean, it would be smart to just work there for a while and get my feet on the ground. And that's what I plan to do. But What. The. Fuck. How did I never think of this before? I didn't really THINK about where I'd be living or who with, I always just assumed I'd be working somewhere and that there would be friends. Which is still likely true. Just... Where did the time go? Gah.
Anyways, I really should be studying for math. I dunno what the point of this was except to ramble and kill some much-needed math time. Good job Sharon, you've effectively further limited your study time once again!
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Also:
Before they take my ticket away I'd like to prove that I had it! Woot woot!
I've been feeling peculiar lately, about lots of things, but specifically, towards school. I'm so close to the end now that I am beginning to feel excited. But this close proximity to the finish line comes with some unexpected inner turmoil that I suppose I should have seen coming. Like, for example, the fact that Ryan S. is in Italy right now. And Erin doesn't know where she's going to work or live in the next while, so she may live very near or very far depending on what happens. And the fact that Alexis is finished, and staying here indefinitely but likely will leave next summer. And the fact that Isabelle has said several times that she will leave Victoria just as soon as she can.
These things are just facts of life, I guess, and I am really not surprised by them at all. What really surprised and caught me off guard was the fact that I did not see this problem before it hit me all at once. That people are leaving. They're going off to start real life, and yeah, that's what we're supposed to be doing, and we've known that from the get-go. But what the hell? How did I manage to avoid that fact for 3 years? And what is going to happen when I graduate? I mean, it recently occurred to me that I don't have to live in B.C. for the rest of my life. HOW HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE? I always joke about living in some foreign country but I was scarcely seriously THINKING about it.
The trouble is (and this hardly sounds like a 'trouble' per se), I have a full-time, with benefits job lined up for fall with the company I have been working for for the last year and a half. I have a good base with them, I have an awesome supervisor, and I generally like the people there. But do I really want to stay there? I mean, it would be smart to just work there for a while and get my feet on the ground. And that's what I plan to do. But What. The. Fuck. How did I never think of this before? I didn't really THINK about where I'd be living or who with, I always just assumed I'd be working somewhere and that there would be friends. Which is still likely true. Just... Where did the time go? Gah.
Anyways, I really should be studying for math. I dunno what the point of this was except to ramble and kill some much-needed math time. Good job Sharon, you've effectively further limited your study time once again!
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Also:
Before they take my ticket away I'd like to prove that I had it! Woot woot!