We could leave this town and run forever.....
i ended things with that new guy...it just didn't feel right, and now he creeps me out a little because he still wants to be "good friends" but i hate when people say that and they were never my good friend to begin with. i mean i had only known him a week. We went out a few times and he slept over twice, does that make him my "good friend"??? I don't know but either way i need to move on the right way. i want to find something explosive like i once had and i know thats a stupid expectation because not all relationships just click, some take time but i want an explosion. Either that or someone that i already know and am friends with...i've been thinking of all my guy friends and i really could see myself dating any one of them, probably because it's already so easy for me to hang out with them and just be myself.
I'm ready to be on vacation for a month, but the holidays aren't going to be like they usually are. My parents are on a very very tight budget and even though just being home feels nice there's always this thing in the back of my head making me feel like by being home i'm costing them more...like they have to buy dinner for 3 instead of two or make dinner for 3 instead of 2...whatever either way i feel like a burden and i wish i could've already been done with school so that i could be there for them to help them get through this...to help us get through this. i hate the economy.
The holidays also make me feel lonely they always have, expecially because it's cold and all i want is someone to cuddle with...but i'm not just going to force myself to like someone that i don't...i feel like a jerk in my head but at least i didn't lead them on any longer. i also feel stupid for other reasons but i'd rather not say because it's stupid lol. All you need to know is that moving on is easier when you're not friends with the person...
Last but not least could someone just send michael cera in my direction please. i love him and he would be a great christmas and lifetime gift.
I'm ready to be on vacation for a month, but the holidays aren't going to be like they usually are. My parents are on a very very tight budget and even though just being home feels nice there's always this thing in the back of my head making me feel like by being home i'm costing them more...like they have to buy dinner for 3 instead of two or make dinner for 3 instead of 2...whatever either way i feel like a burden and i wish i could've already been done with school so that i could be there for them to help them get through this...to help us get through this. i hate the economy.
The holidays also make me feel lonely they always have, expecially because it's cold and all i want is someone to cuddle with...but i'm not just going to force myself to like someone that i don't...i feel like a jerk in my head but at least i didn't lead them on any longer. i also feel stupid for other reasons but i'd rather not say because it's stupid lol. All you need to know is that moving on is easier when you're not friends with the person...
Last but not least could someone just send michael cera in my direction please. i love him and he would be a great christmas and lifetime gift.