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so yeah i think i need to stop eating scrambled egg sandwhiches and cheese quesdillas before going to bed cause im starting to have really weird dreams when i go to bed. two nights ago i had a dream that me and my dad got into a fight and he hit me in the knee with a guitar (?) and he told me that he hated me and wanted me out of the house and somewhere during that time i suddenly had a cut on my arm that went the whole length of my arm like someone just barely cut me with a knife. so i told him that i hated him too and when i tried telling people what he did and no one would believe me...so yeah that one was wierd.
so then i had a dream that i was at work with heather and it was time to close and we locked the door and then 3 three guys started banging on the door wanting in and we wouldnt let them but suddenly they were in the store and then all these other people were coming in the store and heather called the cops but the cops wouldnt come...yeah crazy.
so the last night i had a dream that i was back with mike. it was pretty normal mostly, but it was really wierd in the fact that like when he would put his arm around me i could actually feel like it was real like and when i woke up i rolled over almost expecting him to be there and it was such a let down that it was just pillows. so then i just laid there for a little while and thought about him and everything thinking about the dream cause it was just so real. but i didnt cry (one small step for me)so i eventually got back to sleep...
so yeah then in my dream i was upset about mike so my mom suggested that i go to this little pond so i decide to walk there but for some reason its faw away and its getting dark so then i start getting nervous cause i was scared i was gonna get kidnapped or something so then i started to run but i made it to the pond but for some reason it was still semi light there and there were people everywhere and there were wolves (?i was watching animal planet before i went to bed?) but they were tame...so then some of my friends were there i dont remember which ones and i was kinda mad cause i had gone there to clear my head about mike when all out of no where jared shows up. yeah the jerk from the wedding. but were sitting there talking and he offers to take me home cause i said i didnt wanna walk home alone alone. so then the last thing i remember was me being in his car and talking to my mom to tell her i was going over his house to hang for a little while cause it was only like 7:30 and then i woke up and it was really 7:30. crazy so yeah then after that i was dreamless. thankfully. but yeah thats all for now. gotta get ready for my final day of work this week. yay. and its with amber so it will go by quickly and shall be fun. and tonight im gonna order my jeans cause yeah...im sad i need to shop to brighten my day. okay good bye for now.
so then i had a dream that i was at work with heather and it was time to close and we locked the door and then 3 three guys started banging on the door wanting in and we wouldnt let them but suddenly they were in the store and then all these other people were coming in the store and heather called the cops but the cops wouldnt come...yeah crazy.
so the last night i had a dream that i was back with mike. it was pretty normal mostly, but it was really wierd in the fact that like when he would put his arm around me i could actually feel like it was real like and when i woke up i rolled over almost expecting him to be there and it was such a let down that it was just pillows. so then i just laid there for a little while and thought about him and everything thinking about the dream cause it was just so real. but i didnt cry (one small step for me)so i eventually got back to sleep...
so yeah then in my dream i was upset about mike so my mom suggested that i go to this little pond so i decide to walk there but for some reason its faw away and its getting dark so then i start getting nervous cause i was scared i was gonna get kidnapped or something so then i started to run but i made it to the pond but for some reason it was still semi light there and there were people everywhere and there were wolves (?i was watching animal planet before i went to bed?) but they were tame...so then some of my friends were there i dont remember which ones and i was kinda mad cause i had gone there to clear my head about mike when all out of no where jared shows up. yeah the jerk from the wedding. but were sitting there talking and he offers to take me home cause i said i didnt wanna walk home alone alone. so then the last thing i remember was me being in his car and talking to my mom to tell her i was going over his house to hang for a little while cause it was only like 7:30 and then i woke up and it was really 7:30. crazy so yeah then after that i was dreamless. thankfully. but yeah thats all for now. gotta get ready for my final day of work this week. yay. and its with amber so it will go by quickly and shall be fun. and tonight im gonna order my jeans cause yeah...im sad i need to shop to brighten my day. okay good bye for now.