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Yes well I decided to update cause it's past 4:30 in the morning and I'm most deff NOT tired at all. I talked to Robert on the phone tonight untill about 2-2:30, somewhere around there. I got off cause the conversation was dieing and my mind was wondering. So I got off, went through some old notes and movie stubs and what not, and decided to write Robert a note. It turned out to be 3 pages long, and I basically spilled my heart out to him. There was a few smiles, a little crying and some anger in it, but it all came out fine. I'm glad I wrote it, now I just need to find the courage to give it to him. His mom introduced me to his whole family as Rob's girlfriend, even when Rob told her that we weren't together anymore, she just told him to shut up. I love his mom a lot...but me and Rob are not together.
Another thing made me think really hard the other day. I went to my Aunt's house for my favorite cousin Adam's college graduation party...I spent a lot of time with him and I was so happy to be with him. He also made me cry. He's engaged now, they are moving to Manhatten for a year and then coming back and getting married. I'm going to miss him like crazy it's not even funny. That's not the point though, what made me think was my Uncle Jim. He was hugging me good bye after the party and he says to me "Are you happy?" Just like that. No warning or intro or anything to the question...just that. It caught me off guard but I said in return "Well, not completely, but for the most part, yes I really am" That's the truth. I have awesome friends that I know love me, an amazing family that I couldn't possibly ask for anyone better and it's summer. I'm happy with my life, yes. There is just so much though that I wish was better. That I wish I could change, but I'm just not sure how. It was by far one of the hardest questions I have ever had to answer...and to this moment I'm still thinking about it.
Due to the fact that I get bored easily, I've been recently going onto Yahoo and going to different games to play. This is a great way to meet interesting people and make friends. Well the other day I was playing pool and while waiting for Jeff to come in and join me, someone had invited me to join him in a room to play. Well I declines, while waiting for Jeff. We got to talking on Yahoo games IM and he's from Michigan. Mind you though, he's 37 years old. We were just talking though and he tells me he just recently published a poetry book of all his original poems. This sparks my interest greatly and we got to talking more. He gave me his AIM sn and we talked on AIM. Well, I sent him a sample of my poetry, just to get his insight on it. He was very impresses and told me that I had amazing talent. Not only did this make me incredibly happy, but it gets better. He tells me a later day that he was so impressed that he wants to send a sample of my writing into his publisher and see what he can do about getting me published myself! I was shocked, I didn't think I was all that good, but he says he knows talent when he sees it and really thinks I have a great shot at it. I'm so excited about it. I would need to get permission from my parents to get it published, so I still have to tell them that I was talking to the guy in the first place. I'm excited about it though, and I'll let you know when I find out more.
Something sad to note------absolutly NO ONE is online right now. This depresses me because I'm still not tired at all and I have no one to talk to. Looks like I must result in going onto Yahoo and playing more games. haha I shall update at a later date when I figure some stuff out, something new, exciting, sad, fun or interesting happens in my life. Later----much love. <3
Another thing made me think really hard the other day. I went to my Aunt's house for my favorite cousin Adam's college graduation party...I spent a lot of time with him and I was so happy to be with him. He also made me cry. He's engaged now, they are moving to Manhatten for a year and then coming back and getting married. I'm going to miss him like crazy it's not even funny. That's not the point though, what made me think was my Uncle Jim. He was hugging me good bye after the party and he says to me "Are you happy?" Just like that. No warning or intro or anything to the question...just that. It caught me off guard but I said in return "Well, not completely, but for the most part, yes I really am" That's the truth. I have awesome friends that I know love me, an amazing family that I couldn't possibly ask for anyone better and it's summer. I'm happy with my life, yes. There is just so much though that I wish was better. That I wish I could change, but I'm just not sure how. It was by far one of the hardest questions I have ever had to answer...and to this moment I'm still thinking about it.
Due to the fact that I get bored easily, I've been recently going onto Yahoo and going to different games to play. This is a great way to meet interesting people and make friends. Well the other day I was playing pool and while waiting for Jeff to come in and join me, someone had invited me to join him in a room to play. Well I declines, while waiting for Jeff. We got to talking on Yahoo games IM and he's from Michigan. Mind you though, he's 37 years old. We were just talking though and he tells me he just recently published a poetry book of all his original poems. This sparks my interest greatly and we got to talking more. He gave me his AIM sn and we talked on AIM. Well, I sent him a sample of my poetry, just to get his insight on it. He was very impresses and told me that I had amazing talent. Not only did this make me incredibly happy, but it gets better. He tells me a later day that he was so impressed that he wants to send a sample of my writing into his publisher and see what he can do about getting me published myself! I was shocked, I didn't think I was all that good, but he says he knows talent when he sees it and really thinks I have a great shot at it. I'm so excited about it. I would need to get permission from my parents to get it published, so I still have to tell them that I was talking to the guy in the first place. I'm excited about it though, and I'll let you know when I find out more.
Something sad to note------absolutly NO ONE is online right now. This depresses me because I'm still not tired at all and I have no one to talk to. Looks like I must result in going onto Yahoo and playing more games. haha I shall update at a later date when I figure some stuff out, something new, exciting, sad, fun or interesting happens in my life. Later----much love. <3