update on the friend issue

[shelbz9929]

yeah.....i still dont know what a friend is! thanks for everyone that left comments and helped me out...it really did help! I want my friends to realize that it's not like every other time that we have fought and then just made up two hours later! I am truly hurt this time and I want to make sure they understand that! I dont want to talk to any of them! What makes me more upset is the fact that they are texting me telling me that this is so dumb and we need to talk about it! That makes me even MORE upset! How can me crying and feeling hurt be dumb??? I know I would never tell my friend that her feelings are dumb if I was in her situation! I have realized in the past few days that I care so much about my friends! And thats exactly the reason why this situation hurts that much more!!! I need to start choosing my friends better...cause I realized while I was sittin at home crying on my bed Wednesday night that I have chosen some really shitty ones! While they were out having their great time at the mall and ditching me....I was at home on my bed...alone...crying....and neither one of them cared! Im tired of my own best friends treating me like shit...and I need to finally do somethin about it! I cant keep putting myself in situations to get hurt! Anyways...my TRUE friend Ansley came to my rescue me Wednesday night while I was crying! It's funny how she has nothing to do with this situation yet she cares more then my own two best friends do! Thats horrible! Well Ansley saved me and took me to dinner and just let me talk about everything and pour everything out to her! It felt really good cause I needed to do it! It was really refreshing after realizing that your two best friends are the worst friends ever to have Ansley there who I love soo much! We then went back to her house and watched American Idol! I LOVE YOU ANSLEY!! aka...my Punk Rocker! (I promise we will dye our hair black before we graduate!!!) So I realized I just need to stay away from them for a while...maybe one day they can stop thinking only of themselves and take the time out to actually listen to how I feel...and not tell me what im feeling is dumb or stupid!!! I have been praying about a lot lately and hopefully I will do the right thing!!

Speaking about praying...I have done a lot of that lately! I feel like my relationship with God has become so much closer! I have prayed for him to watch over me and guide me through my troubles with my friends! I have also prayed for my friends a lot lately that hopefully he will be able to help them as well! I thank him everyday for everyone that he has put in my life..I am truly grateful for everything I have been givin! I am soo BLESSED! I am so happy with God right now! I have prayed for a better relationship with him and he has guided and helped me through so much lately! I am so happy that my relationship with Christ is growing stronger every day! It feels so great!

Well thats all I have to talk about now...besides the fact that I have worked soo much this week! I worked Tuesday from 2-10! 8 HOURS!! I think my manager has gone mad! But I will update after this weekend! I'm sure I will have a lot to talk about!!

I love you all!

God Bless!

Also please pray for my ex Joseph's grandfather! Pa Pa was placed in the hospital again last night! So please pray with me for him!! Thanks!