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I'm Woody, howdy howdy howdy.
Let's see... The last post I had was about my relationship being completely over. I suppose you want an update about that. Well, I was actually doing pretty damn well for myself. The day after I got dumped it snowed and I didn't have to go to school. That was awesome. I hung out with my best friend and the lesbian (Kaelyn) all day and went to Gamestop then an Italian place that is tres delicious. At Gamestop I got told that I should work there and that if Koen ever came in there, they were going to kick his ass. That was nice to hear. ^^
I wasn't eating much, if anything, the first couple days. In fact, I've lost ten pounds (just weighed myself) in about a week. That's not too good, but eh. I don't have an appetite at all. The next day I went to first period, which Heather wasn't in and after that we (Natalee, Kaelyn and myself) left to go to Denny's, where I had a few bites of cheesecake and hot chocolate. The waitress knows us so she was really nice about it, she didn't charge us for the hot chocolate at all! :D
Then we tried to go to this adorable Hello Kitty store, but it was closed. So we went to my brother's, where I got a nonworking copy of Viva Pinata (GODDAMMIT) and Phoenix Wright 2 on my DS along with Cooking Mama and FF3. I've just been playing Cooking Mama, haha. It's getting kinda difficult cause my mic's broken. Oh well. Anyway, we then went to my house, then took Kaelyn back to school for Colorguard practice and Natalee and I went back to my house again to find Koen moving all of his things out. Oh, good. We didn't say anything to each other and I talked to Heather for a while. He left and I was crying in my closet (thank God for Natalee, she's the greatest invention ever) for a little while before I decided that I needed new bedding.
So, we went to Kohl's and got nothing, then Target and drooled over what I eventually got and then uh... I forget. That night I got to buy a new bedroom set. It's amazing, I'll give pics whenever I get it all set up (should be by the end of tomorrow). Saturday Natalee, Laura and I went to Ikea (LOVE THAT PLACE) for a desk and a chair. I walked away with a desk and a fucking adorable light up glow guy thingie. And a lamp. I love lamp. Then we went to Home Depot to pick out paint for my room and during that, guess who calls me?
That's right. Koen.
I talked to him for a little while, then I started asking all kinds of questions as to why and he just kept giving me bullshit reasons. So I finally asked him if it was someone else, a girl that he'd been talking to a lot. He was completely offended that I even asked that. He swore to me that he never cheated on me and I didn't believe him. Honestly, he swore to me that he would always love me and never hurt me, why the hell should I believe him now?
I can't really remember what happened next. He just kept telling me that he still cared about me and he wanted to eventually be on talking terms again and I told him that was too bad because he broke my heart. I asked him exactly when he started to feel that way and he said a couple weeks ago. A couple weeks ago? So he had sex with me twice while not knowing if he actually still loved me? I felt so used, degraded. Disgusted. He kept telling me he didn't use me for that, and he honestly did love me. I asked him why us loving each other wasn't enough of a reason to stay together and he told me I didn't take care of myself.
I told him I had no fucking idea what he was talking about. Here I was, about to get a brand new hairstyle, already bought a completely new bedroom and taking my medication faithfully and he's telling me that I don't take care of myself. I was pissed. I asked him if he was even taking his meds and he told me yes.
I really don't remember what happened... I just kept talking to him and telling him what he did was stupid and eventually he just got quiet. His voice completely changed. He asked how long I was going to be where I was and I said that I was going out to eat then I didn't know what I was doing. He asked me to come over and I said yes. Natalee was pissed, but I talked to her about it. She told me she didn't want to see me getting hurt again and I told her that if Koen didn't take the responsibility for a lot of the shit he did, I wouldn't get back with him.
Well, I'm at his new apartment for all of five minutes before he pulls me into his arms and begs for me back.
I said yes.
Things are different now. We're different in our own ways, but I think this will help it work.
Man, I'm cold.
Let's see... The last post I had was about my relationship being completely over. I suppose you want an update about that. Well, I was actually doing pretty damn well for myself. The day after I got dumped it snowed and I didn't have to go to school. That was awesome. I hung out with my best friend and the lesbian (Kaelyn) all day and went to Gamestop then an Italian place that is tres delicious. At Gamestop I got told that I should work there and that if Koen ever came in there, they were going to kick his ass. That was nice to hear. ^^
I wasn't eating much, if anything, the first couple days. In fact, I've lost ten pounds (just weighed myself) in about a week. That's not too good, but eh. I don't have an appetite at all. The next day I went to first period, which Heather wasn't in and after that we (Natalee, Kaelyn and myself) left to go to Denny's, where I had a few bites of cheesecake and hot chocolate. The waitress knows us so she was really nice about it, she didn't charge us for the hot chocolate at all! :D
Then we tried to go to this adorable Hello Kitty store, but it was closed. So we went to my brother's, where I got a nonworking copy of Viva Pinata (GODDAMMIT) and Phoenix Wright 2 on my DS along with Cooking Mama and FF3. I've just been playing Cooking Mama, haha. It's getting kinda difficult cause my mic's broken. Oh well. Anyway, we then went to my house, then took Kaelyn back to school for Colorguard practice and Natalee and I went back to my house again to find Koen moving all of his things out. Oh, good. We didn't say anything to each other and I talked to Heather for a while. He left and I was crying in my closet (thank God for Natalee, she's the greatest invention ever) for a little while before I decided that I needed new bedding.
So, we went to Kohl's and got nothing, then Target and drooled over what I eventually got and then uh... I forget. That night I got to buy a new bedroom set. It's amazing, I'll give pics whenever I get it all set up (should be by the end of tomorrow). Saturday Natalee, Laura and I went to Ikea (LOVE THAT PLACE) for a desk and a chair. I walked away with a desk and a fucking adorable light up glow guy thingie. And a lamp. I love lamp. Then we went to Home Depot to pick out paint for my room and during that, guess who calls me?
That's right. Koen.
I talked to him for a little while, then I started asking all kinds of questions as to why and he just kept giving me bullshit reasons. So I finally asked him if it was someone else, a girl that he'd been talking to a lot. He was completely offended that I even asked that. He swore to me that he never cheated on me and I didn't believe him. Honestly, he swore to me that he would always love me and never hurt me, why the hell should I believe him now?
I can't really remember what happened next. He just kept telling me that he still cared about me and he wanted to eventually be on talking terms again and I told him that was too bad because he broke my heart. I asked him exactly when he started to feel that way and he said a couple weeks ago. A couple weeks ago? So he had sex with me twice while not knowing if he actually still loved me? I felt so used, degraded. Disgusted. He kept telling me he didn't use me for that, and he honestly did love me. I asked him why us loving each other wasn't enough of a reason to stay together and he told me I didn't take care of myself.
I told him I had no fucking idea what he was talking about. Here I was, about to get a brand new hairstyle, already bought a completely new bedroom and taking my medication faithfully and he's telling me that I don't take care of myself. I was pissed. I asked him if he was even taking his meds and he told me yes.
I really don't remember what happened... I just kept talking to him and telling him what he did was stupid and eventually he just got quiet. His voice completely changed. He asked how long I was going to be where I was and I said that I was going out to eat then I didn't know what I was doing. He asked me to come over and I said yes. Natalee was pissed, but I talked to her about it. She told me she didn't want to see me getting hurt again and I told her that if Koen didn't take the responsibility for a lot of the shit he did, I wouldn't get back with him.
Well, I'm at his new apartment for all of five minutes before he pulls me into his arms and begs for me back.
I said yes.
Things are different now. We're different in our own ways, but I think this will help it work.
Man, I'm cold.