The oddest thoughts strike me when I'm trying not to think.
The position of speakers on a laptop is really not the most... Intelligent design. But whatever works, I suppose.
I'm doing better so far. I have Natalee, Kaelyn, Allen and very much Rusty to thank for that. I'm extrememly grateful to have friends that take care of me when I need it.
I know this is not the end of the world.
I know that I will get over it.
I know I didn't deserve the way he treated me toward the end.
But it still hurts. And yes, I still feel like I won't be able to ever find someone I loved as much as him. But honestly, I'm more pissed off than anything else. I feel very much like JoAnn in Rent whenever she and Maurine broke up toward the end. As if that makes any sense to you guys, but it's like... I tried so hard and then he just left me.
I tried to trade in the PSP he bought for me today, but they wouldn't let me because I wasn't 18. Goddamn illegal contracts. I went to Beauty Brands afterwards and bought Hempz body wash. It smells sooooooooo good. And I got a louf for me and one for Natalee because she's been so sweet to me.
Natalee is right. I just need to assume it's over and get over it...
He was such a liar.
I'm doing better so far. I have Natalee, Kaelyn, Allen and very much Rusty to thank for that. I'm extrememly grateful to have friends that take care of me when I need it.
I know this is not the end of the world.
I know that I will get over it.
I know I didn't deserve the way he treated me toward the end.
But it still hurts. And yes, I still feel like I won't be able to ever find someone I loved as much as him. But honestly, I'm more pissed off than anything else. I feel very much like JoAnn in Rent whenever she and Maurine broke up toward the end. As if that makes any sense to you guys, but it's like... I tried so hard and then he just left me.
I tried to trade in the PSP he bought for me today, but they wouldn't let me because I wasn't 18. Goddamn illegal contracts. I went to Beauty Brands afterwards and bought Hempz body wash. It smells sooooooooo good. And I got a louf for me and one for Natalee because she's been so sweet to me.
Natalee is right. I just need to assume it's over and get over it...
He was such a liar.