Concrete prison

[sheisloved]

I was not made to spend 12 hours a day in a gigantic building that used to be an old hospital. At the moment I feel caged up. I feel as though I can not breath through these concrete walls. I infact can not even breath outside in the Los Angeles air. I just want to take a breath of fresh air. I want to be outside and in nature. I feel so far from

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[carrythezero]

I think what you're talking about, the fakeness, is a lot of the reason organized religion sucks. And a big reason why so many people are turned off by it, and subsenquently (and very unfortunately) spirituality in general. So definitely, you shouldn't feel bad about pointing out those things. Its not gossip or crap talking, its something that you should be upset about and something you shouldn't be afraid to address.

I guess it might be kind of weird for me to comment, since im so far out of the organized religion circle, but i know what you're talking about. And i guess im just trying to encourage you to not be scared to stand up to the negativity in people, and disagree with them, and point out the good points in someone they might not like. It sounds like you have a much stronger character then these people, and i just hope you have the strength to not let them, or that city, get to you. In fact, i'm sure you're probaby the one that stands the best chance at it. The fact that you're even bothered by this shows a lot.

I don't know if this makes a lot of sense, but i just wanted to say something. Also, i really hope you find somewhere in the city where you feel an escape from all of that.

[sheisloved]

Thanks.
Today I was desperate to escape. I mean, I am so happy to be here..but then again I am not at all. Some days I just have to stop and think...what the heck am I doing here? I just want to run and be somewhere where people can just shut up and maybe just listen to each other.
Do you ever find yourself observing a conversation where neither of the people are listening to each other, and they each just bark out words to have them said. The speak only to hear themselves. That happens to me almost everyday.
Thanks for the encouragement...I know I can stand against these religious ministry robots.