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[sheheartshim]

I went and got my nails diiiiid. theyre a light sparkly barbie pink woo woo. then i hung out and then jeff came over to study. for the 3 hours we hung out a 1/2 hour was spent studying maybe 45 mins. then we just hung out and we got down and dirty. yup thats right. he decided to be a kool kid. it all started i was sitting on my bed and he was by

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College...

[dapples]

Ah, the college issue. Possibly leaving your friends, best friends, and of course, the boyfriend, behind. It's scary to think about, huh? Last year I kept thinking about how much I was going to miss my friends and then they up and told me that I was doing everything wrong, that I was messing up the dynamics of the group, and dropped me. And so life goes on. I didn't mean to just write a "pity me" chapter, but you do have to understand that things CAN change over the course of a year. Of course, if things don't, maybe start thinking about where it is that you want to go. If both you and Jeff want to go to different schools because you have your different interests, then so be it, but there are SO many schools nowadays that you could wind up close to each other. If one of you is allowed to have a car on campus and lives in a co-ed dorm, you can travel to see each other and spend the nights and whatnot. That's what I made sure that I could do, but for other reasons as well. If you look hard enough, you can definately find a school that's going to accomodate both of your needs and is close to the other. Of course, not all things work out, and if you guys aren't willing to settle your differences, don't give up on the relationship. I mean, I've been told that long distance stuff doesn't work out very well, and I'd imagine that that would be very true in college, but you have to remember that this is going to be a whole new stage of your life, and maybe you and Jeff WANT to start out that new part without each other. And then, things could still work out perfectly if you two love each other as much as it sounds like.
You asked how I was dealing with the whole Matt thing. Well, I've had an idea of what type of school I've always wanted to go to, but that hasn't really changed from just being with him. I knew that I didn't want to go too far away, so I'll probably stay in MA or in NH. Matt's trying to get into Harvard, but that's a long shot, and if not, he has other options that, if he decides he wants to, he can go to another place that's near one of the schools I'd like. I'm personally not going to move my location just because something MIGHT work out in the long run between Matt and I, but then again, we haven;t been together as long as you and Jeff have. I just know that this is my LIFE I'm planning out here and what I do at college will probably decide what I'm going to do to make me happy and to get me a job. And that's nearly forever. Whereas Matt and I might not be forever. It's not worth risking my entire life to stay close to him. Plus, I want to have the CHANCE to experience things without him as well as with him.

Okay, now I'm just babbling. Sorry. I guess I'm trying to sort of my own thoughts while I'm writing this... Good luck to you though. I know that you'll make the right choice.

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[sheheartshim]

Well. I dont know where to begin?! Its great that you and matt have actually TALKED about this lol. Ofcourse things change I know that. but I still have some time. I mean its not like Im a senior right now. Its just that colleges have been sending me so much information about hwo they want me to apply to them and I should consider looking at them. Obvioulsy right now is the time to start thinking about this type of stuff. Come summer time I want to know like my top 5 colleges Im gunna apply to in the fall. So the rightful thing to do would be to atleast start talking about it right? The problem is last night after we talked about what colleges we wanted to go to we stopped. Then it came up again and he said to me " I dont want to talk about it, it makes me upset and nothing good can come from it OUCH! haha. And im PMSing right now so I got really upset and still am but I cant tell him cuz he doesnt want to talk about it. Whenever I wanna talk about something with him he doesnt want to.. arg.. ok thats besides the point.
Ofcourse Im not going to locate myself to adjust to him. Im going to the school that I want to go to. But Im hoping to be within driving distance. Is that too much to ask for?!? Atleast you and matt have come to driving distance possibilites. Jeff is lookin at like D.C,Maryland,NC. I mean wtf. He shouldnt be "upset" if he is the one leaving ya know? Obvioulsy he will go where he wants ofcourse but dont complain that 'it upsets you' espically when your the one leaving to go far away. Bah. I want to stay up here as well. OH btw, when i talked to ur mom turns out were looking at the same school? maybe u arnt now idk but last time her and i talked u were looking at st anslem? im interested in that school too. Thats all that is in his mind. Georgetown and schools down there. He wants to get into international affaires. Im just SO frustrated with alot of things right now. I hate growing up. I wish I wasnt a junior, I really wish I was a freshman again. Well how does Matt feel about all of this? does he atleast talk to u about it haha? Ack, Im sorry Im just SO frustrated with alot of things right now and I cant tell them to anyone and its harddddddd. Alright well it was nice talking to ya! ttyl.

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[dapples]

Ugh. I wrote out a long reply and then my internet froze. Good one.
Anyway, Matt and I are the opposite of you and Jeff. Matt's the one worrying so much about school and I'm the one that's just thinking that things will work themselves out... Maybe just sit Jeff down and make him listen to your worries. haha.
Oh, and about Saint Anselm, it's a nice school. I really liked it, only it was a little bit too religiously oriented for me. And by the way, I also applied to Saint A's, Western New England College, Wheaton, Stonehill, and Ohio WEsleyan University. I applied early decision to Wheaton and I'll find out if thats where I'm gonna go by February 15th. Sooo nervous!
Good luck with everything!