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I went and got my nails diiiiid. theyre a light sparkly barbie pink woo woo. then i hung out and then jeff came over to study. for the 3 hours we hung out a 1/2 hour was spent studying maybe 45 mins. then we just hung out and we got down and dirty. yup thats right. he decided to be a kool kid. it all started i was sitting on my bed and he was by the comp and he dropped some card onto the floor and i told him to pick them up. then i dropped my plate on the floor and he told me to pick it up. so then i got up and for some gay ass reason he took his piece of pizza and smeared it all over my arm! so bad that it gave me a rash haha. and then he pushed me onto the floor... not kool jeffrey not kool. so then i cleaned up and was done so he thought. so as he was kissing me i took a piece of pizza and smothered it all over his face. it was hilarious. it all escalated from there pretty much. finally i took the whole plate and threw it at him hahhaha. and then he just picked up pieces and threw them at me. the whole thing was just really funny. i love him. hes my best friend. we have so much fun. we talked about this in religion since we were doing a chap on dating. its good if ur bf is ur best friend, i love it. anyways.... so we had a really good night. and then we started to talk about the future.... :( college. need i say more. i dont know i dont even know where to begin i really dont. and he doesnt want to talk about it so i guess i just have to keep all my feeligs to myself which is so hard for me to do cuz i tell him everything. but if now isnt the right time. when is? and i know we still have like a year and a half til college but if u think about it. we should be deciding what colleges we want to apply to this summer. and then in the fall we will apply for early action and get our acceptance letters in like decemember. so when SHOULD we talk about this. bah all he could say to me was " I dont want to talk about it, nothing good can come from it." yeah that makes me very sad. I could go on for hours about this. Im so confused right now I dont know what to say or do. I really dont. Plus its PMS time and things will only get ugly so i will stop talking about it.