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Why create an online journal? Why post my life for the world to know? Because I feel like it maybe. I really have no answer. I'm a young mother. Like, teenage. I get a lot of judgment because of this. "She won't be able to provide for that child" "She'll be a terrible mother" "She must be easy" "Oh, she's on welfare, what a surprise." "She's ruined her life"
Yes, I am on welfare. I hate every goddamned second of it too. But I need to be if I want to stay in school. I don't have the mental capacity or time to hold a job, attend school, and make sure I'm there for my daughter. It's as simple as that. Do I plan on depending on the government for the rest of my life? No. I want to graduate high school and go on to university. I plan on being a History teacher. So you see, I haven't ruined my life. If anything, I'm more motivated to live it.
I have somebody who depends on me, who looks up to me as a role-model. I want to be deserving of the love and pride in her eyes. I want to provide her with a good life, and a safe home. I want to be somebody she can look up to, somebody she won't be ashamed to call mother.
She's one now. And I have a long way to go. So I've decided to take everybody on the journey with me. Let people see my life through my eyes. Instead of through the window.