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this could be the worst thing that's ever happened to me. i need to change. it could be too late. but i need to change anyway. if my fears are right, i literally don't think i'll want to be alive anymore. it's so easy to forget... and i do. but then every hour or so i remember and can't breathe and fucking spaz out and get angry and my mind becomes a fucking tornado and i cry. a lot. i wish life had a rewind button. i wish good intentions and being dealt a shitty hand and having no one to help you out soon enough could erase mistakes. i make too many. i made too many. FUCK.
i'm going to a show with dave tonight. he makes me smile. i hope it's fun. i hope it's what i need. i hope i don't cry. i hope i'm wrong.
i need help.
no more of that. everything else is amazingly amazing. and i'm probably fine.
i love how ridiculously hot it has been. i want to go to the beach soon. and i want to have a picnic soon so i can use my super cool new picnic basket that i got at the thrift store for 2 bucks. it's the best.
that's it. i'm hungry. bye.
i'm going to a show with dave tonight. he makes me smile. i hope it's fun. i hope it's what i need. i hope i don't cry. i hope i'm wrong.
i need help.
no more of that. everything else is amazingly amazing. and i'm probably fine.
i love how ridiculously hot it has been. i want to go to the beach soon. and i want to have a picnic soon so i can use my super cool new picnic basket that i got at the thrift store for 2 bucks. it's the best.
that's it. i'm hungry. bye.